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NothingElseMatters

NothingElseMatters

Warlock
Mar 30, 2020
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i'm really sure about that. i can't bear methods like sn because it gives me time to regrets, but a gun right now in my hands would be amazing. anyone also feel this way?
 
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Alwaysbadtime

Alwaysbadtime

Enlightened
Jun 28, 2021
1,158
i'm really sure about that. i can't bear methods like sn because it gives me time to regrets, but a gun right now in my hands would be amazing. anyone also feel this way?
Why can't you get one?
 
Jumping_realms

Jumping_realms

★☆★ ☠️★☆★
Jul 4, 2021
483
In the 60 successful cases on here, most who used SN were out in 8-15 minutes. Unless calling for help, it would be over quickly for the person attempting.

10 minutes is nothing to me, with what I've lived through and now have to live for.
 
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Akerblad

Akerblad

Dead inside but still horny
Jun 16, 2021
61
me too and any others
 
PrincessInWhite

PrincessInWhite

I just want to sell out my funeral
Feb 21, 2019
641
i'm really sure about that. i can't bear methods like sn because it gives me time to regrets, but a gun right now in my hands would be amazing. anyone also feel this way?
Yes, sending you so much love, I hate that you have to feel this way
 
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Hurt

Paragon
Nov 13, 2020
905
I had that chance and didn't do it. I'm a coward ;-;
 
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Amacko

Amacko

Member
Aug 27, 2021
17
I feel like if I had one I would start to hesitate because of shitty SI, but it's comforting knowing that you can go anytime
 
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I'd have been dead 7 years ago.
 
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NOPAIN

Member
Sep 13, 2021
13
me too
In the 60 successful cases on here, most who used SN were out in 8-15 minutes. Unless calling for help, it would be over quickly for the person attempting.

10 minutes is nothing to me, with what I've lived through and now have to live for.
dis agree with you.
 
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Huntfish34

Enlightened
Mar 13, 2020
1,619
Uuugghh.... I've got numerous guns and still can't do it. Fckn SI.. It's rough for sure,. Just wish you the best in whatever may happen.

Butch
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,269
I'm not sure how I would be if I had a gun in my hands. I will never know if as it is not legal. It is not my preferred method. It is not a nice thought ctb that way. Maybe if I got extremely desperate.. I just want to fall into an eternal sleep.
 
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summers

Visionary
Nov 4, 2020
2,493
I have 8 guns, 5 of which I would trust to ctb. Just having them doesn't change anything. Yes, there are days that I really feel like ending things, but then I realize I have a plan, and would like to stick to it.

It's not about the method, it's the planning. Plenty of people go by sn or n, because they plan and are comfortable with their decision. All a gun does is let you act impulsively. Not the best thing to do, as I bet if you just wanted to eat a bullet in the heat of the moment, you would be shaking like a leaf, have doubts, and probably miss and fuck yourself up royally.
 
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lonleycrowdedwest

im so dumb i misspelled lonely
Aug 16, 2021
127
I agree with you on the SN. I've had terrible pain and fear in my dreams, whos to say that chemical asphyxiation won't be felt while unconscious? I think that a lot of people here are underestimating the possibility of this. This is why I havent gone through with it. Also i was shipped the wrong chemical lol.
 
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TobyPadres

Member
Sep 10, 2021
18
if i had a gun and plenty of vodka i think i could pull the trigger, my previous attempts have been impulsive although the idealisation and thoughts have been there regulary
 
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summers

Visionary
Nov 4, 2020
2,493
I agree with you on the SN. I've had terrible pain and fear in my dreams, whos to say that chemical asphyxiation won't be felt while unconscious? I think that a lot of people here are underestimating the possibility of this. This is why I havent gone through with it. Also i was shipped the wrong chemical lol.
If I were going to use n, sn, or another chemical, I would probably take about 12 benadryl, so I'm not just unconscious, but completely blacked out. I've done this before (taken a whole sheet of benadryl) and it's about as close to general anesthesia as you can get with pills. You don't dream, feel or remember anything. It's like the lights go out, and you wake up several hours later.
 
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lonleycrowdedwest

im so dumb i misspelled lonely
Aug 16, 2021
127
If I were going to use n, sn, or another chemical, I would probably take about 12 benadryl, so I'm not just unconscious, but completely blacked out. I've done this before (taken a whole sheet of benadryl) and it's about as close to general anesthesia as you can get with pills. You don't dream, feel or remember anything. It's like the lights go out, and you wake up several hours later.
Not remembering an event doesn not mean you did not at one point experience it. If you drink to much and black out and get sad, do you not think that you felt the sadness? You did, you just dont remember it. I have an extensive history of benzo use, so i understand where you are coming from. Anesthetics are different, they physically remove your ability to experience pain, as does any dissociative. Maybe SN and a fat line of ketamine is the way to go.
 
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summers

Visionary
Nov 4, 2020
2,493
Not remembering an event doesn not mean you did not at one point experience it. If you drink to much and black out and get sad, do you not think that you felt the sadness? You did, you just dont remember it. I have an extensive history of benzo use, so i understand where you are coming from. Anesthetics are different, they physically remove your ability to experience pain, as does any dissociative. Maybe SN and a fat line of ketamine is the way to go.
At that point, drink the sn, and shoot enough h to kill yourself. Even if you don't fatally od, that will put you in a near comatose state, lower your heart rate, and make the chance of sn working even greater.
 
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lonleycrowdedwest

im so dumb i misspelled lonely
Aug 16, 2021
127
At that point, drink the sn, and shoot enough h to kill yourself. Even if you don't fatally od, that will put you in a near comatose state, lower your heart rate, and make the chance of sn working even greater.
Ive considered that, painkillers seem fairly painless, lol. The issue is they don't quell fear very well and are reversible+illegal. Benzos do a good job at giving you some courage, but for me they also remove my drive to CTB while under the effects of them. Interesting dilemma i've found myself in
 
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