falloutcarter13
Bury me, bury me...
- Aug 1, 2020
- 671
I've pretty much lost all desire to self-medicate since I decided to ctb a couple of weeks ago for sure. Tonight, I've got the strongest urge to go on a marathon session of blowing trees. I have an asshole dealer I could get a 1/4 from on credit (lol), but I know if I get fried, I'll just sit around and think about stupid ways to avoid murdering myself. I'd probably end up getting caught trying to steal a sailboat and escape my problems to an uninhabited island, and be in even deeper shit. I'm not going to do it, getting high would in no way help my situation. Just wish the urge would pass. Weed makes me altruistic as hell, which has the unfortunate side effect of extending to liking/loving myself. No thanks.