I'd rather end up with brain damage or end up in a mental hospital than living this life anymore.

[lovelulu]

At this point, I dont care if I even survive anymore. I dont care how ill end up. I just can't do this anymore. I'd rather be retarded with brain damage or in the mental hospital—atleast then I could finally think about something else other than my shitty life. On top of that, I know ill never get over my fp no matter how much she'll hurt me, so id rather be dead (obviously), in a mental hospital, or have brain damage than having to think of her. Im struggling so much and there's nothing anyone can do. I hate my shitty life so much. Everything I do including this is a cry out for help, even though I know no one can do shit for me.

 

[Slark]

I've been through two stays in psychiatric hospitals, and they weren't such bad experiences. If you need help, maybe you should talk to someone about hospitalization. Just don't expect it to be like a hotel, with good days and really bad days. In my case, one night a patient in withdrawal arrived and kept screaming for his mother all night, and you could hear him even though he was in a different room. I also saw people tied to their beds due to alcohol withdrawal. Well, I guess those weren't good experiences either.

 

[PanaxMan]

At this point, I dont care if I even survive anymore. I dont care how ill end up. I just can't do this anymore. I'd rather be retarded with brain damage or in the mental hospital—atleast then I could finally think about something else other than my shitty life. On top of that, I know ill never get over my fp no matter how much she'll hurt me, so id rather be dead (obviously), in a mental hospital, or have brain damage than having to think of her. Im struggling so much and there's nothing anyone can do. I hate my shitty life so much. Everything I do including this is a cry out for help, even though I know no one can do shit for me.

I mean asking for amnesia is a interesting way to go about things it'll be interesting for sure

 

[tomame]

i feel the same way. my partner had a stroke .. and i wish it had been me.

everyday i tarry with no real meaning to my existence

i wish they still had long term psychiatric hospitals that drug you up and keep you there forever.

 

[XxEstenxX]

At this point, I dont care if I even survive anymore. I dont care how ill end up. I just can't do this anymore. I'd rather be retarded with brain damage or in the mental hospital—atleast then I could finally think about something else other than my shitty life. On top of that, I know ill never get over my fp no matter how much she'll hurt me, so id rather be dead (obviously), in a mental hospital, or have brain damage than having to think of her. Im struggling so much and there's nothing anyone can do. I hate my shitty life so much. Everything I do including this is a cry out for help, even though I know no one can do shit for me.

This is happening to me too. My (ex now) fp just told me that she doesnt and will never feel anything other than casual for me—but Im still somehow special to her? It makes no sense. I snapped. Even if I do survive my attempt I just want to be in a hospital and away from everyone I know for awhile...I'm tired of not feeling loved, not feeling good enough...