I'd like to do it today.

[Zzzzz]

SI is such a monster. But maybe I will get lucky. Really struggling mentally right now. The environment I'm in is so toxic and passive aggressive but I have no where else to go. Cannot work. I'll die on the streets. I Will not endure that again. I do not want to suffer anymore.I want to prevent myself as quickly as possible from feeling any more suffering in life.

 

[endmypain]

I feel sorry for you

 

[8evergo]

yes it's difficult especially when you think about the relatives/famile i.a when you find a good ctb partner then it might be easier because i'm not afraid of death but i really don't want to die alone

 

[Zzzzz]

yes it's difficult especially when you think about the relatives/famile i.a when you find a good ctb partner then it might be easier because i'm not afraid of death but i really don't want to die alone

Good luck finding a partner. May you find freedom from this hell-world.

 

[Flying Away]

Peace be the journey

 

[8evergo]

I'll do it soon too, probably alone I can't live anymore I don't want to live anymore

 

[Zzzzz]

I'll do it soon too, probably alone I can't live anymore I don't want to live anymore

Doing it alone is difficult and inhumane that we must suffer in this way just to be free from suffering and misery.

 

[8evergo]

the whole life was inhuman for me,unfortunately i have to get away and finally get some rest from my shitty life

 

[FuneralCry]

It really is such a cruel and horrible life and I know that it is hard to carry on when you suffer so much. People should not have to endure so much pain and of course it should be easier to leave this world behind. I hope that you find what you are looking for.

 

[The_Flying_Fox]

I'll do it soon too, probably alone I can't live anymore I don't want to live anymore

Same here.

 

[houseofleaves]

I wish you luck — in life, or — in whatever.

 

[Zzzzz]

..If I do end up ctb soon. I want to say This forum nor it's members have in no way encouraged me to end my life. The decision was made by myself and was going to happen with or without this forum.

 

[Nothingtoadd]

Hope you can find peace

 

[DarkNearDeath]

We're not friends but have a good eternal sleep

 

[Zzzzz]

Hope you can find peace

Thank you. I hope I can make the choice I want to make and feel free enough to make it, with nothing holding me back.

 

[blue_muse]

Try not to focus on the variables as much, because luck can be like a magician hoping to pull a rabbit out of a hat each time. Think what is achievable to improve, if there's anything, your situation. If you come back to the same point about your environment and finances, then you have your answer.

You sound objective about your prospects.

 

[Zzzzz]

Try not to focus on the variables as much, because luck can be like a magician hoping to pull a rabbit out of a hat each time. Think what is achievable to improve, if there's anything, your situation. If you come back to the same point about your environment and finances, then you have your answer.

You sound objective about your prospects.

I got my answer many years ago. Now I'm just living in a world I despise and want nothing at all to do with. There is no reason I should regret ending my life. I'm not going to miss anyone in this world very much. The people I love the most are already dead.

 

[blue_muse]

I got my answer many years ago. Now I'm just living in a world I despise and want nothing at all to do with. There is no reason I should regret ending my life. I'm not going to miss anyone in this world very much. The people I love the most are already dead.

I wasn't suggesting you should feel regretful . By the way, I hear you about not missing anyone. To use a metaphor; sometimes too much water goes under the bridge.

As long as you're sure you want to die, then I wish you a painless journey to the other side .

 

[8evergo]

good bye

 

[Shivali]

May you find peace

 

[Zzzzz]

good bye

Thank you. Hopefully it is soon. If I don't log on for a couple weeks that might be the case. But I still want my account active just in case. Though there is a part of me that wonders how anyone here would know if I passed away. I'm usually happy and relieved to hear of people successfully freeing themselves from all pain and suffering in life.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Thank you. Hopefully it is soon. If I don't log on for a couple weeks that might be the case. But I still want my account active just in case. Though there is a part of me that wonders how anyone here would know if I passed away. I'm usually happy and relieved to hear of people successfully freeing themselves from all pain and suffering in life.

You can always use the "delay post" feature to post a Thread on SS. If the message actually gets posted, we can assume you were successful. If you're not successful, you can cancel the message. Of course, no one can actually know for certain if someone actually goes through with ctb, unless they have IRL contact with that person, which some on SS do with some members. but, that's about as good as it can be if a message saying something like, "If your reading this, then you know I was successful", or something like that.