Help I wrote this to myself and I don't know how to counter these arguments and beliefs

[lost_one]

So stupid of me to want solace from someone, so pathetic, just shut your mouth you useless pathetic waste of space...Ridiculous tha YOU want someone to want you alive, you want someone to put their hand in your head and tell you it's going to be okay. Don't be so dumb you know that could never happend. Stay in silence, it's past the time you be dead, you are a coward and a piece of shit, don't you dare give up this time (on CTB).

Your instincts are good trust them, you know you are right to kill your self, you know no one would ever love you if they knew what a mosnter you are.

So just shut up and die already

I have been here so many times, and I do belive the right thing to do is end my life, cause I hate myself, and I am tired. And every time I get cold feet, I get scaredm but at the same time I am unable to resolve my issues and I am tired of living like this. I decided today is the last day I will debate this in my head, if I can't find a good reasoning I am gointo to CTB, because backing out hasn't workerd this far

 

[ijustwishtodie]

If you hate yourself, why die? Death isn't a harm to the beings who are dead as it's just permanent non existence. If you hate yourself, why make yourself be in a state where you can't ever be harmed ever again? Just because society treats death as if it's a harm to the beings who are dead doesn't mean that it's actually a harm to them. If I hated somebody, I would want them to stay alive as then they have the ability to suffer if they are alive. I wouldn't want them to be dead as it's within death where they are free from all suffering, hardships and pain

 

[idelttoilfsadness21]

I understand how difficult it is for some... honestly, it's so scary we have to live like this anyways, because people in this world has hurt us so far... I just wish I could give you a tight hug, because these feelings are inevitable and they are truly... without a doubt in mind, the worse parts of existing when you just want peace. I hope you get where you are, especially as myself... I just want peace and hope, like any rich person or privileged person in this world who is lucky enough to have that.

If you hate yourself, why die? Death isn't a harm to the beings who are dead as it's just permanent non existence. If you hate yourself, why make yourself be in a state where you can't ever be harmed ever again? Just because society treats death as if it's a harm to the beings who are dead doesn't mean that it's actually a harm to them. If I hated somebody, I would want them to stay alive as then they have the ability to suffer if they are alive. I wouldn't want them to be dead as it's within death where they are free from all suffering, hardships and pain

This is exactly my thoughts to those who I have helped in this life, and know for a fact they are suffering worse than I, even though I'm in a tight spot because of them...

 

[Giovannino224]

After reading this the firt thing that I noticed is that it looks like that someone was talking to you in your mind, it seemed that you were overwhelmed by that "voice" (pass me the term) at the poit that you tought those were actually thoughts, and not someting that your mind came out with. To explaint this concept to you a little better, my doctor once said to me that in your mind there are 2 types of toughts:
- voluntary thoughts: the name self-explenatory, thoughts that you voluntary create in your mind;
- unvoluntary thoughts: then there are this type of thoughts that you don't create, but insted your mind itself without your conset, and usually this thoughts aren't true or reliable;
Knowing this i dare to say that this letter (or wahtever it is) it's not the fruit of reasoning, but insted something false that your mind tried to trick you with. So in conclusion I suggest you to analyze this writing with the intent to see if is something from you, or from "someone else".
I hope everything I wrote making sense (English is not my first language), and ofc stay safe.