I wouldn't be suicidal if I wasn't lonely

[sulk]

I'm so fucking lonely. I have no one in real life. I just live online. I don't see the point in taking my meds anymore. And I talk to men way older than me on the internet and it helps my loneliness so much until I realize they're so far away from me to even meet up with them. It just fucking sucks. If I lived somewhere far away from my family with the man I love I would be the happiest woman. I have no future it's all I want at this point it's disgusting. It's either that or I kill myself. My friends and family think I'm an interesting person when I have no goals or passions accept that shit. I'm so fucking lonely and vulnerable, I'd genuinely be happy if someone just fucking kidnapped me. But, I know I'm genuinely so unwanted for that to even happen. I hate the way my brain thinks, the way I put myself in these risky situations. I have no other choice, it's all I have. Its why I've been continuing to live but I'm slowly losing my patience and my will to live.

 

[SASU-KE]

Just talk to people as much as you can. It helps alleviate the loneliness.

As for the way our brains are wired, yes, there's nothing we can do about that. I too hate the way I feel but I am helpless about it.

 

[zam_zam]

I'm so fucking lonely. I have no one in real life. I just live online. I don't see the point in taking my meds anymore. And I talk to men way older than me on the internet and it helps my loneliness so much until I realize they're so far away from me to even meet up with them. It just fucking sucks. If I lived somewhere far away from my family with the man I love I would be the happiest woman. I have no future it's all I want at this point it's disgusting. It's either that or I kill myself. My friends and family think I'm an interesting person when I have no goals or passions accept that shit. I'm so fucking lonely and vulnerable, I'd genuinely be happy if someone just fucking kidnapped me. But, I know I'm genuinely so unwanted for that to even happen. I hate the way my brain thinks, the way I put myself in these risky situations. I have no other choice, it's all I have. Its why I've been continuing to live but I'm slowly losing my patience and my will to live.

Same

 

[spiders.in.my.head]

i strongly relate to what you are saying. the thought of wishing to be kidnapped or being in an abusive dynamic just to feel desired has passed through my head more often than I'd like to admit. also, the confusion of why anyone might think of me as interesting, when frankly, i consider myself blander than a rice cracker.

i hope we both can eventually feel more than this loneliness. i wish you the best <3

 

[idontknowwhatiam]

Get off the computer and phone and spend time outdoors if possible