If I could resolve this one thing I wouldn't be suicidal (I'm a middle aged UX Designer struggling with career and growth)
Short story is :
I don't know what else to say or do as that's actually the problem I'm facing right now, and I just don't see the light at the end, so can someone help and advise please?
Short story is :
- I feel really inescure in the UX Design and Tech industry
- I have a contract until the end of the year but I'm really struggling in the job market
- If I had security I would no longer feel suicidal
- So in Decmber I turned 40, and I was feeling a bit anxious before then because i was thinking "bloody hell" is this my life for the next 20 years until I'm 60. Where I'll be doing and workin this way.
- I'm a contractor and my contract was up for renewal at the end of last year. I'm delighted I've been extended as it shows to me that "someone" values me to be paid and get a job.
- Righly I went onto the job market "just in case" I didn't get extended, but I found the job market so tough. I have 14 years of expereince. I have worked at places like Meta / Facebook. But the market has shifted so much recently where places only want to have Product Designers who are very graphics based. I'm not a graphics person, I'm a UX person who tries to understand user needs before it goes onto the visual design.
- I'm also just feeling ashamed of all the work I've ever done. I look on social media and other people's portfolios and they are so much more flashy and complete than mine. I wish I could have worked on these more impactful projects and products, but all I really feel is I've gone into certain situations. I've tried to be my best but then theres been politics and disfunction which makes it tough. I find as well that I'm too truthful in my case studies wanting to show exactly what i worked on and did but I feel ashamed by it.
I don't know what else to say or do as that's actually the problem I'm facing right now, and I just don't see the light at the end, so can someone help and advise please?
