I would have been a beautiful woman .

[Parnate]

I am male, 33, gay. I have always been feminine and graceful. I was bullied and teased a lot for it. While I suppressed it , it was still there and still is. I had great thick luscious hair. Baring my thick nose I have good facial features . Most importantly my body particularly my lower body, my hip are very attractive. Many men I Hooked up with have complemented my ass. Also I have a good chest , which I believe were i woman would have been good breasts. Also I have a natural grace , empathetic nature. Also I am follower and submissive. Not only would I be a beautiful woman but a good wife too the one alpha men desire , one that would keep her husband happy. Most importantly I would be loved the way I wanted , like a woman by a man. While most of my mental problems have resolved and I have accepted them as a part of fate, my gender seems difficult to accept. I ll never have the love of man as his wife, never bear children myself. Never be a mother.

 

[buriedinmyhead]

You're not doomed to stay a man forever

 

[The Blackangel]

I'm a 44 year old transgender woman. I fully understand what you're feeling. I felt it for decades, but because of the culture I grew up in, had I come out I would have been killed. But now I have the love of my life who supports me 100%. She doesn't even see the man she married in 2008. She sees the woman she is going to spend the rest of her life with. It may seem impossible to some, but it works for us. Do I still have a penis? Unfortunately, yes I do. Does that affect our relationship? That one is another topic for another time.

But don't let yourself get super discouraged. You sound like you're still finding yourself. Which is fine. Take as much time as you want. Figure out who you are, and where you want to go. Then follow your path there. You'll make it.

 

[JeyJeyOfJeypore]

I am male, 33, gay. I have always been feminine and graceful. I was bullied and teased a lot for it. While I suppressed it , it was still there and still is. I had great thick luscious hair. Baring my thick nose I have good facial features . Most importantly my body particularly my lower body, my hip are very attractive. Many men I Hooked up with have complemented my ass. Also I have a good chest , which I believe were i woman would have been good breasts. Also I have a natural grace , empathetic nature. Also I am follower and submissive. Not only would I be a beautiful woman but a good wife too the one alpha men desire , one that would keep her husband happy. Most importantly I would be loved the way I wanted , like a woman by a man. While most of my mental problems have resolved and I have accepted them as a part of fate, my gender seems difficult to accept. I ll never have the love of man as his wife, never bear children myself. Never be a mother.

Pretty much me except the gay part. Except as a guy im tall, would need to be a head shorter as a girl

Blame my mom (i dont really care that much) for the hips, chest, and smol shoulders

 

[violetforever]

I ll never have the love of man as his wife, never bear children myself. Never be a mother.

as a woman, i wish i could give you all of these experiences/abilities since theyre of no use to me

 

[Parnate]

Pretty much me except the gay part. Except as a guy im tall, would need to be a head shorter as a girl

Blame my mom (i dont really care that much) for the hips, chest, and smol shoulders

What do you mean except the gay part, I didn't understand can you elaborate?

 

[JeyJeyOfJeypore]

What do you mean except the gay part, I didn't understand can you elaborate?

Im straight

 

[Seneca65AD]

I can't pretend to know what you are going through but why not explore transitioning? You don't have to live full-time as a woman but perhaps try cross-dressing, then you can always add more time to being a woman. I've seen some unbelievable transitions from guys who are lumberjack types to hot curvy women. It sounds like you don't have to go as far as they did when feminizing so why not give it a shot? Life is too short not to at least try to be happy in your authentic self. Also, what stops you from finding love with a guy or even adopting? I've been open with the fact that I have dated transwomen in the past. Those relationships did not work out for the usual reasons but not once did the breakup have anything to do with our "labels".

And the motherhood thing - being a mother is not about giving birth - it's about nurturing, protecting and instilling good values in your kids. Giving birth is the relatively easy part (says the guy who stays home from the office if he gets a man-cold); but it's being there for the skinned knees, heart-breaks and even just a reliable and constant North Star to find home if they ever lose their way. You sound very nurturing and empathetic; those qualities are in damn short supply in the present world and there are tons of kids who need a good mom, just as there are lots of men who need a good supportive woman/partner in their life. What have you got to lose?

 

[volo]

I agree with Seneca above , about motherhood. It's not about giving birth, it's about constant nurturing, presence, for years, and it's hard work. There are gay couples who get kids via surrogate, and it can work out well. Or adoption, may be an option.