Venting I worry all the time...

[Oneness]

I'm constantly ruminating on future uncertainties. It's like I'm trapped in my own personal hell and I'm not sure how much longer I can endure this torment. Even when contemplating the possibility of CTB, my thoughts are immediately hijacked by the insidious anxiety and worrying. I am utterly worn out by the relentless worry that has plagued me. I just want this nightmare to finally cease.

 

[FuneralCry]

Consciousness really is so torturous so it's certainly understandable just wishing to be free from this existence, I hope that you eventually find what you search for. I understand that it certainly is so dreadful fearing what lies ahead, it's horrible how there is no limit as to how much one can suffer as long as they exist.

 

[manuel1056x]

I'm sorry to hear that. I'm also worried about the future. I know that I'm a failure, I can't do anything right. I give up on everything I starting. It's a nightmare. I can give you the advice that often it isn't so bad as you imagine. For me it helpful to give up. I said, that I try as hard as I can to be more productive and have more hope for an better future as I can. If this is not working, I can say that I tried everything, so can do ctb. But it's not the best way. I hope you will become happy.

 

[Rational man]

I used to worry too until I became sick and now the future does not concern me. I honestly believe that we are only guaranteed today so I live as best I can in this moment. Everything is uncertain . It takes alot of effort to focus on that which is around you but you can see as much smoke and mirrors as you can see..

 

[Ligottian]

You sound like me, friend.