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Paralysed&Poorly
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- Jul 19, 2020
- 20
I don't post or interact really in here as I'm struggling interacting with people in general.
But I do look on here alot and I know how much everyone is struggling including myself
it's got to a point where I can't take much more my life is physical torture and misery which has emotionally destroyed me.
The sad thing is I don't want to die but I can't live like this physically anymore so unwell and it's not going to get better. If I knew physically I could get better I'd try but I know unless there's a miracle it's not going to happen.
my parents are so amazing and i love them so much and wish there was another way but there isnt.
i can't get any delivery's without them knowing I haven't left the house for months and that was an appointment.
the only option i still can only think of is cutting and bleeding out. i found my femoral artery and originally thought because of my paralysis I could severe it with no pain I've realised I have odd sensation there so i will feel something. I have no feeling whatsoever from just above my knees and down. I keep thinking is this going to be doable I've looked at the anatomy and still don't know.
I cannot have a failed attempt at all i wish there was an easier way.
if anyone knows about the anatomy I'd be greatful
But I do look on here alot and I know how much everyone is struggling including myself
it's got to a point where I can't take much more my life is physical torture and misery which has emotionally destroyed me.
The sad thing is I don't want to die but I can't live like this physically anymore so unwell and it's not going to get better. If I knew physically I could get better I'd try but I know unless there's a miracle it's not going to happen.
my parents are so amazing and i love them so much and wish there was another way but there isnt.
i can't get any delivery's without them knowing I haven't left the house for months and that was an appointment.
the only option i still can only think of is cutting and bleeding out. i found my femoral artery and originally thought because of my paralysis I could severe it with no pain I've realised I have odd sensation there so i will feel something. I have no feeling whatsoever from just above my knees and down. I keep thinking is this going to be doable I've looked at the anatomy and still don't know.
I cannot have a failed attempt at all i wish there was an easier way.
if anyone knows about the anatomy I'd be greatful