i wish my overdose killed me

[here_for_now]

i overdose a short time ago, i wish it killed me. people lie when they say 'it can only get better' NO it can get much much worse.

Every time my life gets bad i think 'it can't get worse, right?' but it does just like clockwork

i pray to die in my sleep every night, my life is over no future just misery

 

[eupdplishlp]

I'm so sorry for the pain and suffering you've had to endure. You don't deserve pain and I hope you find peace

 

[matt.7890]

Sorry to hear... and I can fully relate. I pray each night not to wake up again and hate it when I do. It is already a hell but I know it will be getting even worse and I can't do anything about it that's the worst part. Why is that normal to put an animal to sleep when it suffers but it is so difficult for humans to being allowed to do it.

 

[here_for_now]

Sorry to hear... and I can fully relate. I pray each night not to wake up again and hate it when I do. It is already a hell but I know it will be getting even worse and I can't do anything about it that's the worst part. Why is that normal to put an animal to sleep when it suffers but it is so difficult for humans to being allowed to do it.

exactly man, you spoke the words right out of my mouth. we treat animals with more dignity than our fellow humans

 

[matt.7890]

exactly man, you spoke the words right out of my mouth. we treat animals with more dignity than our fellow humans

Like literally it would make life so much better and secure keeping in mind that peaceful assissted euthanasia is widely allowed and affordable. I think this would make many people actually delaying it and at least enjoying couple more months, maybe years in freedom rather than planning and torturing themselves with suicide on their own, which oftentime fail and make things worse... I admire people who opened those VAD clinics hower it is still selective process and not many people can be accepted..

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand, I also really wish to be gone, all I wish for is to never wake ever again, I just wish to be free from this torturous, futile existence and it's just so dreadful to me how there's all this suffering in existing, I hope you find the relief you search for, I wish you the best.

 

[matt.7890]

Hope there is peace and joy for all of us on the other side

 

[ultradespair]

I have similar feelings but mine was almost getting ran over by a car when I was younger, not on purpose.

I wouldve never experienced the horrible bullying and other trauma if the car simply hit me

 

[dontwakemeup]

I totally agree with you and feel the same! I always think if only my previous attempts would have worked, I would be free by now. I hate when people give us these empty promises that life will get better, it doesn't! Society will put animals down and that's justifiable to them. If a person is suffering whether mentally or physically they can't grasp or understand that. People rather a person wakes up daily no matter how they feel and is expected to be happy about it. I just pray all of us will be free soon. We never asked to be here, but forced to stay here. I always tell myself, everyday is one less day we have to be here.

 

[here_for_now]

I totally agree with you and feel the same! I always think if only my previous attempts would have worked, I would be free by now. I hate when people give us these empty promises that life will get better, it doesn't! Society will put animals down and that's justifiable to them. If a person is suffering whether mentally or physically they can't grasp or understand that. People rather a person wakes up daily no matter how they feel and is expected to be happy about it. I just pray all of us will be free soon. We never asked to be here, but forced to stay here. I always tell myself, everyday is one less day we have to be here.

so fucking real, this is why i like this community, just people tryna find peace out of this shitty world controlled by racist rapist wealthy people

 

[dontwakemeup]

so fucking real, this is why i like this community, just people tryna find peace out of this shitty world controlled by racist rapist wealthy people

Absolutely! I love this site because it's the only place I can come and feel normal at. The people I should be able to go to unfortunately don't get it or understand. I learned to keep my mouth shut and play their games.

 

[here_for_now]

Absolutely! I love this site because it's the only place I can come and feel normal at. The people I should be able to go to unfortunately don't get it or understand. I learned to keep my mouth shut and play their games.

for real brother, i'm like never going to call 988 lol, so you can call the police on me and send me to psych ward hell?

yea i'll pass

 

[Ambien addict]

i overdose a short time ago, i wish it killed me. people lie when they say 'it can only get better' NO it can get much much worse.

Every time my life gets bad i think 'it can't get worse, right?' but it does just like clockwork

i pray to die in my sleep every night, my life is over no future just misery

me too

 

[dontwakemeup]

for real brother, i'm like never going to call 988 lol, so you can call the police on me and send me to psych ward hell?

yea i'll pass

My old friends called on me. 5 police cars came Never again! I won't even tell anyone if I'm having a bad day! I learned my lesson. If I decide to ever ctb again, I won't give any clues. It's sad, but we walk alone.

 

[here_for_now]

My old friends called on me. 5 police cars came Never again! I won't even tell anyone if I'm having a bad day! I learned my lesson. If I decide to ever ctb again, I won't give any clues. It's sad, but we walk alone.

real shit my brother, i ain't ever doing that shit again too, learned the hard way, they just want slaves for the system.

 

[tbh2023]

It doesn't get better. What did you use to od?