- Jun 25, 2018
I've been severely chronically ill for over 3 years. I can, just barely, keep myself alive on a day-to-day basis but my quality-of-life is non-existent. I've been abused my medical professionals, my family (who I'm forced to live with), denied access to any form of housing or disability. I almost feel like if I kill myself now, I'll be written off as depressed or like I just couldn't take it anymore (because, purportedly, there's no proof I'm 'sick'), and that my family will control the subsequent narrative. I don't even have the willpower to go through with it lately. I feel like if the illness kills me instead, it might be more jarring and people will have to step back and reconsider how they treated me during such a horrific time in my life.