Discussion I wish it was worse. - Poem

[MeSauce]

I wish it was worse.
By MeSauce

I wish it was worse.
Maybe lose a fight in a bar.
Get fired from my job,
And total my car.

Try my luck with heroin.
Pick up self harm.
Cut myself so bad that,
They'll amputate my arms.

Psychology comes up blank.
Therapy talk runs dry.
Medication only dampens it.
Nobody seems to know why.

The worst part isn't being tortured,
but being tortured just enough,
to make every day extremely painful,
and pulling the trigger just as tough.

I wish it was worse.
I wish I could quit.
Because maybe then I'd finally
go do something about it.


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I thought it was cool and wanted to share but too edgy for reddit or sumthin

Anyways i want to ask, do you feel like this sometimes?

 

[spellbound]

I feel like that a lot. I wish I was radical enough to burn the boats and embrace suicide fully, I think I'm too numbed down for it.
Also, quite a touching poem, I love it really