I wish I was never born

[Lampost505!]

I have to be forced to deal with this body, and this brain along with the brutal things that can happen to me at any moment, even without suicide. And with suicide I have to deal with a shitty process as well, I don't understand it.. there's a lot I need to do but even when the environment is set for me to off myself, I probably won't do it. Even though I should, you know eat the frog and deal with the mess, I'm already a mess anyways but it's still terrifying how worse it can get. If I don't die, I have to keep living with being a subhuman, as if I'm lost in a large forrest without any devices and without a compass at night time, there's no one there for me even if they try, it's only myself, and I can't survive but I also can't off myself correctly, so I just wish I never fucking existed

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

it's terrifying how many very horrible nightmares can happen to any human

I wish I were never born

I'm aware of the many dangers and that I like every human is a mortal fragile small animal , cells , chemical reactions but a brain that can suffer unending constant unbearable pain