Venting I wish I made better life choices.

[Sweet Release]

Hey this is just letting of steam but I thought I would see if anyone else would can relate.

Everyday I am tormented by the mistakes I made and what I got wrong when I was younger.
In truth I only made a few mistakes which didn't seem like a big deal at the time but the consequences were huge! Life changing and in the worst possible ways!
I was never able to forgive myself and in truth I genuinely hate myself not only for what I did to my life but also for being such a let down and disappointment to everyone who used to believe in me.

I could take shit from other people but my biggest enemy seemed to be me.
Anyway I'm just using this platform to vent.
Soon my life will be over and I won't have to live with the stupid things I did anymore.

 

[faust]

I would like to give you my hug right now!
Damn, my life would have been completely different if not these mistakes.
Me and my mental illness ruined almost everything...
All those regrets sometimes result in crying spells.
I don't want to live with those regrets.
This is so horrible that we cannot return and change everything...
But seems that it is too late.
Unfortunately we cannot change the past and it often haunts us.
I often think what if my life actually wasn't a one big mistake...
I am sorry, you are experiencing that too...

 

[Sweet Release]

I would like to give you my hug right now!
Damn, my life would have been completely different if not these mistakes.
Me and my mental illness ruined almost everything...
All those regrets sometimes result in crying spells.
I don't want to live with those regrets.
This is so horrible that we cannot return and change everything...
But seems that it is too late.
Unfortunately we cannot change the past and it often haunts us.
I often think what if my life actually wasn't a one big mistake...
I am sorry, you are experiencing that too...

Damn!
I honestly didn't think anyone else could understand and articulate what I am going through like that!
Thank you for responding and I am so sorry that you suffer like this.
I don't know who you are but I am sending a hug back.
Peace be with you.

 

[mesohappy]

I know the feeling well my friend..Late at night in the quiet and solitude the accusing voices in my head berate me and beat me down.Some bad and unfair things happened to me,but the ways I reacted to these things made them a million times worse.You are not alone.

We need to find some ways to accept it and forgive ourselves,then see if we can/want to make another attempt at life or move on somehow.Im trying, but like Faust said above me,I cant help but feel it is too late for me.I know Ill never get back all that I squandered and pissed away.

I hope you hang around awhile and peace finds you,or you it.

 

[faust]

Damn!
I honestly didn't think anyone else could understand and articulate what I am going through like that!
Thank you for responding and I am so sorry that you suffer like this.
I don't know who you are but I am sending a hug back.
Peace be with you.

No worries, thank you for telling us about your problem!

 

[Sweet Release]

I know the feeling well my friend..Late at night in the quiet and solitude the accusing voices in my head berate me and beat me down.Some bad and unfair things happened to me,but the ways I reacted to these things made them a million times worse.You are not alone.

We need to find some ways to accept it and forgive ourselves,then see if we can/want to make another attempt at life or move on somehow.Im trying, but like Faust said above me,I cant help but feel it is too late for me.I know Ill never get back all that I squandered and pissed away.

I hope you hang around awhile and peace finds you,or you it.

I honestly didn't expect such understanding, you described exactly what I go through!
I genuinely hope its not too late for you and I honestly hope all the guilt, shame and sadness wash away.
Your support is much appreciated.

 

[one4all]

All i can say is "FUCK yeah" i wish i made a better choice!

 

[Sweet Release]

All i can say is "FUCK yeah" i wish i made a better choice!

Yeah I know the feeling.
.... By the way, I know this is totally off topic but is that an Alice Cooper quote beneath your thumbnail picture?
I think I remember it from one of his songs.

 

[one4all]

Yeah I know the feeling.
.... By the way, I know this is totally off topic but is that an Alice Cooper quote beneath your thumbnail picture?
I think I remember it from one of his songs.

Not off topic at all. Well i'll be damned (hopefully). You nailed it..it is a lyric from one of his songs.

 

[Sweet Release]

Not off topic at all. Well i'll be damned (hopefully). You nailed it..it is a lyric from one of his songs.

Stevan?
I saw him live years ago and it was one of the best concerts I have ever attended!
Ha ha! Always nice to meet another Cooper fan!

 

[one4all]

Stevan?
I saw him live years ago and it was one of the best concerts I have ever attended!
Ha ha! Always nice to meet another Cooper fan!

Steven.. Yep

I was graced with seeing him twice. I must say both performances are something i still treasure. Always a stage show with Cooper!
Have you ever seen the bio on him? It is truing amazing.
Well know the next question is.. what is your favorite song by him. I know that can be a tough one.

 

[Sweet Release]

Steven.. Yep

I was graced with seeing him twice. I must say both performances are something i still treasure. Always a stage show with Cooper!
Have you ever seen the bio on him? It is truing amazing.
Well know the next question is.. what is your favorite song by him. I know that can be a tough one.

I have never seen the bio but will definitely check it out; yeah he's quite an inspirational guy!
Well, I have several favourite songs of his.
'Under The Bed', 'Lost in America' and 'Welcome to My Nightmare' are all great tracks but if I had to pick just one then I guess I would go for 'Years Ago'.
What would be your favourite Cooper song?

 

[one4all]

'Years Ago'.

A great classic

I have never seen the bio but will definitely check it out; yeah he's quite an inspirational guy!

I think he had a very interesting start to his career. As do alot of certain stars. But i would recommend checking it out. You can sue me later if you think it sucks.

What would be your favourite Cooper song?

Halo of flies

 

[Sweet Release]

A great classic


I think he had a very interesting start to his career. As do alot of certain stars. But i would recommend checking it out. You can sue me later if you think it sucks.



Halo of flies

Awesome!

 

[one4all]

Awesome!

Meaning suing me?

 

[Sweet Release]

Meaning suing me?

LOL! No, Halo of Flies.
What a great song!
Hey I want you to know that you have really cheered me up; its been really nice chatting with you.

 

[one4all]

LOL! No, Halo of Flies.
What a great song!

It's been going through my head a lot lately. Actually i was playing alot of Cooper earlier today

Hey I want you to know that you have really cheered me up; its been really nice chatting with you.

Shame you can't see me in my gorilla/bikini outfit. It's been a pleasure chatting with you also.

 

[Final Escape]

Tell me about it lol!

 

[Phill]

Yes, I can relate to that.

I'm 29 and I look at my life and all i can see is a succession of mistakes. I feel like shit when I look at some friends of mine and see what they've become in life and compare it to me. It's shameful.

 

[Sweet Release]

Tell me about it lol!

You,ve been there too huh?

 

[a.n.kirillov]

Yes, I can relate to that.

I'm 29 and I look at my life and all i can see is a succession of mistakes. I feel like shit when I look at some friends of mine and see what they've become in life and compare it to me. It's shameful.

Just remember that you're 100 percent going to reach the end goal, just as everyone else

 

[Sweet Release]

Yes, I can relate to that.

I'm 29 and I look at my life and all i can see is a succession of mistakes. I feel like shit when I look at some friends of mine and see what they've become in life and compare it to me. It's shameful.

I'm hearing you.
I get that same sense of shame and inadequacy.
Maybe we are just late bloomers and the best times are yet to come?
Its a thought that I try to hold onto.

 

[highlyvolatile]

Hey this is just letting of steam but I thought I would see if anyone else would can relate.

Everyday I am tormented by the mistakes I made and what I got wrong when I was younger.
In truth I only made a few mistakes which didn't seem like a big deal at the time but the consequences were huge! Life changing and in the worst possible ways!
I was never able to forgive myself and in truth I genuinely hate myself not only for what I did to my life but also for being such a let down and disappointment to everyone who used to believe in me.

I could take shit from other people but my biggest enemy seemed to be me.
Anyway I'm just using this platform to vent.
Soon my life will be over and I won't have to live with the stupid things I did anymore.

I can relate so much to this. I blame myself for a lot of these things that happened in my life. Im too hard on myself and I've always been. Its like i like hurting myself or something.. i don't but it's what I've been doing lately so.. I just wish it was something. Anything that i wanted to do that would maybe make me see that life's worth living. The quality of life vastly decreased when i lost my mom. And i ruined my last relationship cause that's what im good at. .. Ruining things. I know im still young but shit my future looks bleak cause im stuck in the past. I wish i hugged my mom more. Wish id called her more. Wish id chosen a different degree. ... maybe even different college. but too late there's no rewind button and ive already got the debt to go with it.

 

[Sweet Release]

I can relate so much to this. I blame myself for a lot of these things that happened in my life. Im too hard on myself and I've always been. Its like i like hurting myself or something.. i don't but it's what I've been doing lately so.. I just wish it was something. Anything that i wanted to do that would maybe make me see that life's worth living. The quality of life vastly decreased when i lost my mom. And i ruined my last relationship cause that's what im good at. .. Ruining things. I know im still young but shit my future looks bleak cause im stuck in the past. I wish i hugged my mom more. Wish id called her more. Wish id chosen a different degree. ... maybe even different college. but too late there's no rewind button and ive already got the debt to go with it.

Sounds like you've been through some really tough times.
I really hope life gets better for you.

 

[highlyvolatile]

Sounds like you've been through some really tough times.
I really hope life gets better for you.

thanks

 

[Worthless loser]

Yes, my life is already over due to all the mistakes I've made. Daily I am tormented by regrets. I have no hope in life and no future.

 

[Sweet Release]

Yes, my life is already over due to all the mistakes I've made. Daily I am tormented by regrets. I have no hope in life and no future.

That sounds so painful.
Sending you a spiritual hug!
I know that won't make it better but please know you are not alone with this.