Venting I wish I had the courage

[nyctophilic]

No matter how intoxicated I get I can't work up the courage to cut deep enough to end my life, somehow I always end up just barely surviving.

I don't understand why though, because it's all I ever think about. My thoughts are consumed by scenarios where I get the exact angle right and cut through the exact veins I need to die.

I can't bear being alive but I can't die either.

 

[thereisnoneed]

are you attempting the cutting method?
it was already documented on here how it's a bad method on every level and it mostly just works in films/TV series, not to mention the risk of getting your arm paralyzed with cutting important veins

 

[nyctophilic]

are you attempting the cutting method?
it was already documented on here how it's a bad method on every level and it mostly just works in films/TV series, not to mention the risk of getting your arm paralyzed with cutting important veins

not really, i've just tried a few times out of desperation recently because ive not had any other options i know it's not a viable method

 

[thereisnoneed]

not really, i've just tried a few times out of desperation recently because ive not had any other options i know it's not a viable method

I know what you mean, i also have no other options at the Moment and i wish cutting was a Good method

 

[bankai]

So sorry y'all,damn.

Read about this experience. Stabbing, bloodletting and cutting aren't that great an option.




Thread 'Self-stabbing and my experience.'
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/self-stabbing-and-my-experience.203914/

 

[thereisnoneed]

i read this thread fully, amazing how seppuku warriors used to do it they had an unbelieveable amount of self discipline

So sorry y'all,damn.

Read about this experience. Stabbing, bloodletting and cutting aren't that great an option.




Thread 'Self-stabbing and my experience.'
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/self-stabbing-and-my-experience.203914/

 

[bankai]

i read this thread fully, amazing how seppuku warriors used to do it they had an unbelieveable amount of self discipline

I've discussed Seppuku before.The thing is, they had an apprentice who would behead them immediately after they opened their guts. I guess if you had someone like that to help you out you could do something like that. But it still takes a lot of willpower and determination.

If you didn't have someone to behead you, you would just howl in pain unimaginably for hours, which is just not any way for a warrior to go.It's a slow death.

 

[thereisnoneed]

I've discussed Seppuku before.The thing is, they had an apprentice who would behead them immediately after they opened their guts. I guess if you had someone like that to help you out you could do something like that. But it still takes a lot of willpower and determination.

If you didn't have someone to behead you, you would just howl in pain unimaginably for hours, which is just not any way for a warrior to go.It's a slow death.

explains so much, thank you