I wish I had cancer

[woxihuanni]

I have nobody to fuss over me anyway, but I'd prefer extremely painful, drawn-out death to killing myself. I would be all alone in a hospital, which is fine. I am all alone anyway. My brain is trying to hide under a blanket from the reality of waking any day knowing it is my last.

 

[Bauhaus]

I could easily also get cancer in later years too then I'd have both. What a nightmare.

That's what horrifies me most, you're already suffering and when you don't ctb you will eventually get cancer/dementia/heart failure on top of it.

 

[All washed up]

That's what horrifies me most, you're already suffering and when you don't ctb you will eventually get cancer/dementia/heart failure on top of it.

This is a scary thought I'm 55, already lost a friend to cancer a few have heart trouble.
Ironically I'm depressed but for my age fit as a fiddle

 

[greebo6]

I've often thought it unfair that people who are happy and want to live die while others who don't want to and are as unhappy as its possible to be stay around for a long time. There's a horrible kind of irony to it.
I have experienced this on a personal level in the past. I would have swapped places.

 

[FlyMe2TheMoon]

No, you don't.
It's painful, shitty, and won't "bring your family together", if anything it might drag it apart. People will either get tired of having to take care of you, or distance themselves from you because they don't want to watch you slowly waste away.
You survive? Congrats! You have mountains of hospital bills, and the trauma of all the painful shit that happened to you.
I've watched people die of cancer. You get tired and sad and ugly, you feel sick all the time. It gets worse and worse until you die, and guess what? Your result, death, is the same as what it would've been if you just did it yourself. Just much less painful for you.
It's not exactly all sunshine and daisies.

 

[elfgyoza]

I completely understand the people here saying it's not something you should wish for however, please also try to understand that when we say we want a terminal illness, we usually mean we want to die in a way that's acceptable to others, a way that lets us and those around us prepare for our death, and the depression also tells me I deserve the suffering anyway. I'm not trying to make light of the pain anyone is in, it's just that SI is a bitch to overcome, but if I were physically ill I could sit back and let it happen. I so wish it were possible to trade with someone who doesn't want it, it's not fair

 

[Lost in a Dream]

There have been times where I have wanted to get cancer as well, but not because I wanted to die from it since that would be horrible. In my case, I would see the initial diagnosis of cancer as my bus ticket. If I were to CTB while having cancer, there is a possibility that my suicide would be easier to deal with for the people I leave behind. It would be easier for them to understand when they already know how terrible it is and are aware that it could still kill me even if I went through all the chemo and surgeries.

Even if I was totally wrong in assuming that it would be easier for others, at least I wouldn't still be alive to make that discovery. Hoping for this would help me to feel more at ease while I'm on my way out.

 

[Deleted member 17949]

same lol

 

[Thatdude]

I'd say "be careful what you wish for".
Usually it's a slow, painful death and the caring family around you is often just a TV cliche.
There are many people dying of cancer who are abandoned by their families because it's "too depressing" for them to keep taking care of you and watch you rot alive.

Ya but the odd thing is assisted suicide in the USA is aviable to those who are dying from stuff like this.

 

[the_final_countdown]

I have nobody to fuss over me anyway, but I'd prefer extremely painful, drawn-out death to killing myself. I would be all alone in a hospital, which is fine. I am all alone anyway. My brain is trying to hide under a blanket from the reality of waking any day knowing it is my last.

I was hoping to die in a hospital bed. But living room surrounded by blankets works too.

 

[Computer Blue]

I rather agree with Lost In A Dream that a terminal disease and suicide go hand in hand. I reckon it would be difficult for the healthy me to commit suicide because of the stigma that it carries. What will people think and what sort of ridiculous assumptions will they make about me if I commit suicide? Will they pity me? … I would hate that. I wouldn't really be able to say goodbye to anyone. Next, I can imagine survival instinct causing me major problems even though I am in my 50's and have been thinking about this for a long time. But, if I were to develop a painful terminal disease, then suicide seems a natural option. Near the painful end, SI shouldn't be much of an issue. Yep, that is the ticket out for me I think. I'm truly sorry for those who have cancer and want to live or have to suffer through it … as we all know, this existence can be horribly unfair.

 

[Bauhaus]

My mum has leukemia now and I really wish it was me instead :(

 

[Natty]

My mum has leukemia now and I really wish it was me instead :(

My mom died of cancer in 2013, the world would be a much better place if it had been me in her stead.

 

[WornOutLife]

Not cancer but, I used to wish I had coronavirus and it killed me but guess what?
I got it but I got over it kinda easily. I'm so pathetic lol.

 

[Life_and_Death]

Not cancer but, I used to wish I had coronavirus and it killed me but guess what?
I got it but I got over it kinda easily. I'm so pathetic lol.

i have undiagnosed breathing problems and cant wear a mask because of them plus im a delivery driver so i get to hang out with everyone. thankfully i havent had it (some fucking how). because its an undiagnosed problem im scared that i would be one of the ones to die from it.