My passive suicidality is wearing me out. I want to die so bad but the time hasn't yet come. I just wish that I had at least one failed attempt behind my back so that I felt valid. Right now I definitely don't, and never have I.
Maybe it doesn't matter. I have some in the past and it's bringing me no closer to an actual attempt now.
I'm not trying to dismiss your feelings. Just that it may not factor into a successful attempt
I'm not trying to dismiss your feelings. Just that it may not factor into a successful attempt
theonethatsleeps
between pain and nothing, I'd chosen nothing
- Nov 10, 2025
- 6
So real. I'm not encouraging you, but I also wish I had a failed attempt up my sleeve, so I could at least feel good about it.
I never tried it and I honestly want to CTB just to fail the attempt on purpose. Would it still be considered a failed attempt then?
I never tried it and I honestly want to CTB just to fail the attempt on purpose. Would it still be considered a failed attempt then?
monetpompo
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- Apr 21, 2025
- 684
failed attempts aren't a rite of passage. you only end up hurt by it in the end, mentally or physically. it's better to only attempt once so that you never feel the same kind of fear from your attempt twice.
part of me is kinda hoping that my upcoming attempt in Japan fails so i can get arrested and committed after they send me back to America
