I wish I could just go to sleep and never wake up

[AntHills]

My intended method is pretty much guaranteed to work and will be (hopefully) painless, but it's violent and it will probably traumatize whoever has to see my body. I've done enough damage to the world and I don't want to hurt anybody ever again, but I know that a lot of people (mostly family) would be broken if they found out, and I can only imagine how horrifying it would be if they had to see the result. If there was a magic pill that could kill me in my sleep, I would take it right now. I don't want to suffer a painful death, and I don't want anybody else to have to suffer through the result of my (hopefully) painless death. I feel trapped and I'm putting it off, but I know if I don't do it while I have the chance, I'm going to regret it. My life is shit and I hate myself. lol

 

[CentreMid]

Best of luck for whenever the time comes. Being stuck between wanting to do it and putting it off is the most horrible place to be for sure.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I wish you all the best with your plan. What's your method if I may ask?

 

[SolomonKado]

My intended method is pretty much guaranteed to work and will be (hopefully) painless, but it's violent and it will probably traumatize whoever has to see my body. I've done enough damage to the world and I don't want to hurt anybody ever again, but I know that a lot of people (mostly family) would be broken if they found out, and I can only imagine how horrifying it would be if they had to see the result. If there was a magic pill that could kill me in my sleep, I would take it right now. I don't want to suffer a painful death, and I don't want anybody else to have to suffer through the result of my (hopefully) painless death. I feel trapped and I'm putting it off, but I know if I don't do it while I have the chance, I'm going to regret it. My life is shit and I hate myself. lol

If you don't have anyone that lives with you then schedule an email for 8-12 hours after to go to someone to call the police to come check on you. I wish you only peace.

 

[AntHills]

I wish you all the best with your plan. What's your method if I may ask?

Definitely not going to publicly announce how I intend to do it, as I don't want to trigger/upset anybody who has seen the results of this method, or give anybody any ideas, especially considering the amount of traffic this site gets from minors. Harm reduction is pretty important to me, which is one of the main reasons I've decided to go through with this.

 

[FuneralCry]

I find it so incredibly horrible how people have to suffer in the dying process, it's inhumane how we cannot just choose to never wake, if that option was available it would prevent so much torment. But anyway I hope you eventually find freedom from your suffering.