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Sadbanana

God doesn't care
Aug 20, 2024
241
I would say my dreams are the only place where I'm happy anymore. For some reason video games or movies no longer make me feel anything. But in the dreams I can still feel things. Sure sometimes I dream about being bullied or feeling inadequate, but other times I have a really good time. If only I could stay in them, I would no longer want to die.
 
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liquid jen

liquid jen

Blind painting, my body's a disease
Sep 9, 2025
103
I feel the same. You could try practicing lucid dreaming and learning various other techniques. I'm not anywhere near an expert on this, but I love dreaming and researching things like that. Supposedly through things such as time dilation and false memories you really can make your dreams last a (seemingly) really long time. It'll take a while to get any of the skills better, but it could be worth it. I know it's not the same as forever though.
 
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Sadbanana

God doesn't care
Aug 20, 2024
241
I feel the same. You could try practicing lucid dreaming and learning various other techniques. I'm not anywhere near an expert on this, but I love dreaming and researching things like that. Supposedly through things such as time dilation and false memories you really can make your dreams last a (seemingly) really long time. It'll take a while to get any of the skills better, but it could be worth it. I know it's not the same as forever though.
I also researched a lot about this, but I find it extremely hard to do. Everytime I realize I'm dreaming I wake up almost immediately.
 
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Kadaver

Kadaver

Maybe death is like falling asleep
Aug 11, 2023
182
I don't dream often but I always wish I was asleep because when I'm asleep I don't feel so damn shitty. It's the only real break I get from my life
 
rainieday06

rainieday06

Member
Jun 14, 2025
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I would say my dreams are the only place where I'm happy anymore. For some reason video games or movies no longer make me feel anything. But in the dreams I can still feel things. Sure sometimes I dream about being bullied or feeling inadequate, but other times I have a really good time. If only I could stay in them, I would no longer want to die.
i have very vivid dreams....and i know exactly how you feel. I wish i could just go to sleep and stay asleep forever. Or wake up in one of my dreams timelines. idk...something. But then i wake up....and realize it was only a dream and i have to deal with the world again....and i totally hate it.
 
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Hystearical

Hystearical

In tears
Jul 23, 2022
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I had three distinct dreams last night and they were all superior to my present reality. It was almost traumatic waking up each time from them. And so it is each night.
 
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Sadbanana

God doesn't care
Aug 20, 2024
241
i have very vivid dreams....and i know exactly how you feel. I wish i could just go to sleep and stay asleep forever. Or wake up in one of my dreams timelines. idk...something. But then i wake up....and realize it was only a dream and i have to deal with the world again....and i totally hate it.
Exactly, I wish this life was just a dream. And dreams were the reality.
 
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Markisloggingout

One day, I am gonna grow wings
Oct 25, 2025
12
In my good dreams I'm who I want to be
 
Pfysch

Pfysch

This is not a dress rehearsal.
Sep 29, 2025
13
I had three distinct dreams last night and they were all superior to my present reality. It was almost traumatic waking up each time from them. And so it is each night.
I've had incredibly vivid dreams for around 8 years straight, it feels like this every time. They've always felt "realer than real" in the way people describe psychedelic drugs. I've used psychedelics though, and those experiences never even came close to a fraction of the vividness, depth, and intensity of my dreams. Waking up from one feels like an entire reality collapsing, for better or, usually, worse.

At times I'm convinced that this world is definitely the fake one, or at least a miniscule one of many. Logically, I know that my dreams are a result of brain chemistry...but after years and years of experiences that are realer than real, the dissonance is killing me. I don't know what to believe.
 

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