Venting i wish i could ask questions without raising alarm

[SimpleLivingThing]

the thing about wanting to ctb is that i have so many things i want to ask the people i care about, but i can't. i want to know if my best friend would forgive me, if they'd still get that tattoo, if they'd finish doctor who without me, and so on. but i can't ask things like that without causing concern. i want to ask my boss to leave me off the schedule for a few weeks after i ctb so that if it fails, i can come back, but if it works, there won't be a scramble to cover my shifts. there are so many things i want to know, but i just can't ask because i know they'll try to stop me. i don't want to be stopped, i don't want to be fixed, i just want to know what pain and how much ill leave behind.

 

[EmptyBottle]

It would indeed be cool to discover that and more. I might answer those questions if I was asked, tho ofc show concern for my friend and probably ask why they wish death (and will try to listen and if possible, offer support)