I wish death would come

[downndone2]

I wish my heart would just stop as I sleep, that I wouldn't have to wake up the next day.
If you go back thru some of my posts you can see my struggles and loss. My life thrown upside down by myself while nuts
Things aren't getting better. Even after losing and then obtaining job, I'm still hating my life and know the income will not come anywhere close to pay my massivecdebt.
The only reason I still breathe is because of my family and dogs. But most of my family I hurt with my decisions and my dogs seem miserable with this fucked up way of life
I have all these health problems, I just want one of them to kill me, but instead I get the daily chest pain and it keeps beating.
I want to ctb but my available methods keep holding me back.
Sorry, truly just venting because I have no one to talk to

 

[Mimi_]

It's alright, don't be sorry, I hope you will find a peaceful way to go.

 

[Sulyya]

Venting is good, no problem doing so. Passing in sleep without having to take a terrifying step or wait would be preferable.

 

[downndone2]

It's alright, don't be sorry, I hope you will find a peaceful way to go.

Most likely gunshot to head. I don't have much else

Venting is good, no problem doing so. Passing in sleep without having to take a terrifying step or wait would be preferable.

I hope for that every day. I don't understand why other people must die, I'm willing to take ones spot

 

[FuneralCry]

It's very unfortunate how it's so difficult to leave this hellish world, waking up here when you just wish to be gone really can be so horrible and I also wish that there was an option to just peacefully pass away in our sleep. There certainly does seem to be no peace from suffering in this world so I hope that you eventually find what you wish for.

 

[wanttodie]

I wish my heart would just stop as I sleep, that I wouldn't have to wake up the next day.
If you go back thru some of my posts you can see my struggles and loss. My life thrown upside down by myself while nuts
Things aren't getting better. Even after losing and then obtaining job, I'm still hating my life and know the income will not come anywhere close to pay my massivecdebt.
The only reason I still breathe is because of my family and dogs. But most of my family I hurt with my decisions and my dogs seem miserable with this fucked up way of life
I have all these health problems, I just want one of them to kill me, but instead I get the daily chest pain and it keeps beating.
I want to ctb but my available methods keep holding me back.
Sorry, truly just venting because I have no one to talk to

me to

 

[UseItOrLoseIt]

Man, every time I go to sleep I wish I never wake. It's like a prayer almost.

 

[downndone2]

Man, every time I go to sleep I wish I never wake. It's like a prayer almost.

Same here, except I hate the thought of my dogs having to wait for someone to find me

 

[UseItOrLoseIt]

Same here, except I hate the thought of my dogs having to wait for someone to find me

And I hate the thought of my parents finding me dead.
Btw, that's like 70% of the reason that I didn't CTB yet. The other 30% being fear of failure.