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sadgirl2002

sadgirl2002

Fallen Angel
Apr 9, 2019
452
There's a small part of me that says:

I wish I had the perfect family growing up and that I didn't have to go through abuse.
I wish my mother had loved me throughout my childhood.
I wish my father didn't drink alcohol, get addicted and health problems.
I wish I wasn't hated by everyone in primary and secondary school.
I wish I wasn't bullied by girls in my year and the four years above.
I wish I was skinnier and prettier like the American tumblr girls I saw when I was 13.
I wish I didn't have those so-called fake friends who were rude to me, used me, manipulated me and ruined my life.
I wish I wasn't born so my parents could've had a better life.
I wish things didn't happen so I could've stayed how I was when I was 17.

And yet there's a much bigger part of me that says:

I wish he would come back to me.
I wish he would appear in my dreams tonight.
I wish he would call me one day and speak to me.
I wish I could turn back time and stay there and meet him then.
I wish he loves me back one day and realises that.
I wish we could be together soon.
I wish everything unravels beautifully, just how things are starting to transform right now.
I wish I could disappear in my sleep tonight and appear in his dreams.
 
woxihuanni

woxihuanni

Illuminated
Aug 19, 2019
3,299
I'm so sorry. I feel your pain. I have had my heart broken by more than one Chinese person, and I don't know that I'll ever be the same. But, maybe you and I are stronger somehow because of it.

You miss a notification, and then they're gone... My heart is breaking, I hope you have found peace...
 
GreyMagic

GreyMagic

The more you care, the more you have to lose.
Feb 21, 2019
173
I wish I hadn't let my fear of rejection control how I reacted to me making a mistake with somebody on here. So i left the conversation before they could reject me for being too stupid.
 
woxihuanni

woxihuanni

Illuminated
Aug 19, 2019
3,299
I wish nothing but surcease of sorrow.

I am ashamed of having been 'good' all my life. Kids, don't be good. Scream when you're in pain. Do not smile and meet the deadlines and be strong and independent. Do not. There is no such thing as independent, there is such a thing as not welcome to anybody's world. That is all there is to it.
 
Midnight

Midnight

Beyond solace
Jun 30, 2018
624
I wish i could hold and fall asleep next to someone i love and she loved me. Tonight and all the days after that.

But then again .. i hate that wishing exist. It's utterly futile and if you somehow got what you wanted at one point your mind simply goes to the next thing to wish for. There is no end to it ... Always wanting more and better. Hoping,wishing,contemplating...what a waste of all the time spent doing so.
 
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Mort

Mort

No use to know one
Feb 15, 2019
622
I wish i have never existed
I wish i had the balls to stand up for my self when I was younger
I wish i could not feel love happiness sadness and all of the other emotions
I wish my pain go a way
I wish these dark thoughts would go a way and not darken my dreams
I wish to just fade away like an old picture to never be missed
I wish to be forgotten and no tears shed for me
 
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Mr2005

Mr2005

Don't shoot the messenger, give me the gun
Sep 25, 2018
3,622
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Thankyou. I've just been called cynical and mean so that's a nice antidote to that.
 
Emerald

Emerald

Despairing
Sep 16, 2019
74
I wish I could go into a deep sleep and not wake up.
 

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