in2thespiral
Member
- Aug 9, 2023
- 5
I don't understand why people get into a relationship and not commit to their significant other. Why would u make someone feel so loved only to indulge in other people behind their back.
Were ur so desperate to have a woman that u just felt forced to be with me because ur were lonely for so long and now that ur with me it still isn't satisfying? I gave u every piece of me and u still wanted to see other girls. What about me isn't enough? Where am I lacking? It's obvious I don't look like them. How can u make a deep connection and bond to a woman who cares for u immensely and still feel the want to see others on a screen. I'm with u physically. I am urs. Not them. I don't want to be a shadow of all these other girls faces and bodies. Why am I a second thought? Why am I not desirable enough?
I feel so unbearably ugly to know that something about me isn't enough. Something about me doesn't meet ur needs or pleasure u. What is it that makes me so unwanted? Why did u do that to me? Why do I have to live with the knowledge of u feeding ur mind with other women. What about me? I'm right here. What is wrong with me? How can u say that "You're the only one I want," and "You're beautiful, stop getting so down on yourself," and "I love you." It's all a punch to the gut. It feels like ur ripping my insides out and trying to shove them back in to save a relationship you weren't even dedicated to.
I want to rip ur fucking eyes out. Why would u get into a relationship if u didn't find me attractive? Is one girl not enough? Where did I go wrong? I gave u everything. What is so hard about wanting only one person? You HAD ME right in front of you and still wanted to see other girls. All I wanted was u. Your time, energy, patience, and love. I loved the long conversations. I loved when you held me. I loved our little side quests. I loved waking up to ur face every morning but now just looking at u or talking to u makes my heart drop. I'm not them. I don't dress like them. I don't do my makeup like them. I don't have their hair. I don't have their faces. I don't have their bodies. They must be attractive in every way that I'm not. Why the fuck did I let myself trust again? Why did I let myself fall so deeply? All for a guy who couldn't respect me or have loyalty.
I'm just fucking nothing. I seriously feel I will never be loved. I will always be hurt in the end like the pathetic sob story that I am.
Were ur so desperate to have a woman that u just felt forced to be with me because ur were lonely for so long and now that ur with me it still isn't satisfying? I gave u every piece of me and u still wanted to see other girls. What about me isn't enough? Where am I lacking? It's obvious I don't look like them. How can u make a deep connection and bond to a woman who cares for u immensely and still feel the want to see others on a screen. I'm with u physically. I am urs. Not them. I don't want to be a shadow of all these other girls faces and bodies. Why am I a second thought? Why am I not desirable enough?
I feel so unbearably ugly to know that something about me isn't enough. Something about me doesn't meet ur needs or pleasure u. What is it that makes me so unwanted? Why did u do that to me? Why do I have to live with the knowledge of u feeding ur mind with other women. What about me? I'm right here. What is wrong with me? How can u say that "You're the only one I want," and "You're beautiful, stop getting so down on yourself," and "I love you." It's all a punch to the gut. It feels like ur ripping my insides out and trying to shove them back in to save a relationship you weren't even dedicated to.
I want to rip ur fucking eyes out. Why would u get into a relationship if u didn't find me attractive? Is one girl not enough? Where did I go wrong? I gave u everything. What is so hard about wanting only one person? You HAD ME right in front of you and still wanted to see other girls. All I wanted was u. Your time, energy, patience, and love. I loved the long conversations. I loved when you held me. I loved our little side quests. I loved waking up to ur face every morning but now just looking at u or talking to u makes my heart drop. I'm not them. I don't dress like them. I don't do my makeup like them. I don't have their hair. I don't have their faces. I don't have their bodies. They must be attractive in every way that I'm not. Why the fuck did I let myself trust again? Why did I let myself fall so deeply? All for a guy who couldn't respect me or have loyalty.
I'm just fucking nothing. I seriously feel I will never be loved. I will always be hurt in the end like the pathetic sob story that I am.
