I WILL KILL MYSELF BEFORE TOUCHING ALCOHOL OR CAFFEINE AGAIN

[IWantToSleep]

I refuse to inflict an even more severe anxiety on myself with these substances, I'd rather be dead. As soon as I get my head straight I'm going for AA and a quitting caffeine community, fuck this bullshit.

 

[Alwaysbadtime]

Okay...but maybe this isn;t the total problem.

What is going on?

 

[seamus]

No matter how far down the road you are it's a difficult journey back in my experience but I wish you good luck

 

[logan]

I wish you that you can do it - it is definitely worth it.

 

[PinkSakura]

Good for you, Caffeine is the devil

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

Caffeine and nicotine gives the calorie-free junkie experience. Alcohol sadly has a lot of calories

 

[IWantToSleep]

I don't know about caffeine, I might use it again in moderation, but I can't with the alcohol. I'm having the worst anxiety/panic today after drinking.

 

[Under The Graveyard]

Sorry, but I can't live without my alcohol.

 

[NasiGoreng]

I drink coffee without caffeine, it helps with anxiety and coffee cravings. Alcohol always makes me feel bad the next day..

 

[EraseRewind]

You can do it, i quit alcohol because it completely f***ed me up, but then drank too much coffee, which got me to hospital, but then cut my coffee down. Six years clear of alcohol after 30+ years of alcoholic drinking, just taking it a day at a time with AA and other groups.

I wish you well

 

[FuneralCry]

Personally I never have any alcohol and caffeine and never will as I have heard about people having these unpleasant symptoms from taking them. I wish you the best with it.

 

[-Tandem-]

Pretty hardcore alcoholic here, literally just got out of the hospital yesterday for withdrawals. My body still wants to drink so badly but I'm fighting for something bigger. I'd rather just die than go through this shit. Feel ya friend. I truthfully cannot fathom why a higher being would put me on this earth. I know dogs that have accomplished more with their lives.

 

[IWantToSleep]

Had the luck of sleeping through the entire day yesterday, woke up at half ten PM, feeling pretty shitty but realising I can't stress myself out about being sober for the rest of my life, it's one day at a time, although I'm already fantasising about how if I'm going to drink again it's going to be done methodically and be lived as a lifestyle, because doing it every few days doesn't really help and isn't a plan, but all that's me trying to justify using it again because I don't want to ctb because of my anxiety, and alcohol is one of the only things that temporarily makes me feel okay, I doubt it will work, the idea that I'll have to ctb makes me so sad though.

 

[Hurt]

Wish I could do this. But I love coffee and beer are one of my few reasons I stay. But as u say it makes u more anxious.

 

[Grant Me Death]

Good luck. I plan on quitting alcohol tomorrow. I've been going to some appointments talking with a substance abuse counselor, but have still been drinking pretty much everyday. Enough is enough.

 

[-Tandem-]

Good luck. I plan on quitting alcohol tomorrow. I've been going to some appointments talking with a substance abuse counselor, but have still been drinking pretty much everyday. Enough is enough.

it's so fucking hard man. I'm trying to watch a movie and my brain keeps counting down the hours until the liquor store closes. This shit is exhausting.

 

[Grant Me Death]

it's so fucking hard man. I'm trying to watch a movie and my brain keeps counting down the hours until the liquor store closes. This shit is exhausting.

I get it. I always tell myself this will be the last time just for me to tell myself this will be the last time the next time I drink.

 

[IWantToSleep]

My streak didn't last long lads.

 

[Remember-Me-Not]

My streak didn't last long lads.

I'm sorry to hear that, but the fact that you really wanted to quit is already an accomplishment. And the fact that you were able to go 2 days??? That is also amazing. Next time, 3 days. Then next time, 4, 5, 6, 7 days, then 2 weeks, 3 weeks, 1 month, half a year, a year, etc etc.

I hope you recognize that you did your best. Not everyone acknowledges their struggles with alcohol or caffeine. I wish you continued luck!

 

[Ken Ough]

Understandable. I spent 11 months without alcohol after dissappearing from the society. I blamed it on prolonging my toleration.
Recently I started watching movies again and of course I'm not able to watch dramas without drinking so had a beer once again (though what I really need is whiskey).

 

[IWantToSleep]

I should probably start doing heroin so I can eventually OD and spare my family the alcohol bullshit.
Just letting you guys know, no one gives a fuck how you feel if it inconviencences them, not like any of us would would be any different. This post will be incoherent. Enjoy weeks or months long waiting lists for help while you're suicidal.

 

[IWantToSleep]

I'll get back on track guys.

 

[celan]

I'm a coffee freak, but since I'm taking Bupropion I really have to reduce it to one or two cups a day because it increases my anxiety significantly and makes me feel like I've taken cocaine, which is a feeling I don't enjoy.
Alcohol, in my opinion, boosts the mood you're in; if you're happy it makes you happier, if you feel horrible, it makes you feel even worse.
So alcohol and caffeine (in high doses) are not good for anxious persons.