i will CTB tonight

[moonleftdensetsu]

I have some drugs and i think its going to end me when someone found me. I'm not afraid of death or anything but it just feel strange and weird. I'm pretty anxious about my family too. I don't wanna cause any harm but I don't think its possible at this point. I just wanted to get this off my chest. Though I still don't want to hurt my family. What do you guys suggest me to make it less painful for my family?

 

[FishRain3469]

I'm sorry it has come to this for you, but I believe it will be painful for your family No matter what... hard to get around that part.

Idk if drugs are a good idea honestly, they often will leave you alive and possibly in worse shape. Regardless, I hope you find peace.. whether it be in life or death.

 

[EmptyBottle]

what drugs are they?

 

[moonleftdensetsu]

what drugs are they?

40 mgs of risperidone and some random drugs I found at house

 

[EmptyBottle]

40 mgs of risperidone and some random drugs I found at house

oh no, an antipsychotic overdose will have nasty effects (not necessarily fatal, but I do not recommend spinning the roulette wheel of painful side effects... the wheel is biased towards side effects instead of death)... no idea what the other drugs will do... if paracetamol overdose... painful liver damage, which may or may not be fatal

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find the relief you search for, I wish you the best.

 

[moonleftdensetsu]

oh no, an antipsychotic overdose will have nasty effects (not necessarily fatal, but I do not recommend spinning the roulette wheel of painful side effects... the wheel is biased towards side effects instead of death)... no idea what the other drugs will do

I havent eaten or sleept for a day i think im going to pass out when i took those pills and feel nothing

 

[EmptyBottle]

I havent eaten or sleept for a day i think im going to pass out when i took those pills and feel nothing

that is only one possible outcome... I believe there will be nasty side effects the next morning

 

[moonleftdensetsu]

that is only one possible outcome... I believe there will be nasty side effects the next morning

there will be no next morning

 

[EmptyBottle]

there will be no next morning

I wouldn't bet on it, overdoses of common medications are not that fatal, check the non-methods section to see for yourself. Additionally, I'm curious what drives you to seek death?

 

[moonleftdensetsu]

I wouldn't bet on it, overdoses of common medications are not that fatal, check the non-methods section to see for yourself. Additionally, I'm curious what drives you to seek death?

i dont actually have any other options and i at least have to try

 

[EmptyBottle]

i dont actually have any other options and i at least have to try

If you want to test and see what happens, I can't stop you from causing harm to yourself... but I can only warn against it.
Note that there is a risk of spending some time in a psych ward... ICU, or other hospital area.

 

[FadingSnowFake]

Whether you succeed or not, will be hard on your family. If the method is not as sure to work, I would ask myself if I'm prepared to face my family in their pain if it doesn't go my way. I wish you well and all the best, sending love for whatever happens.

 

[EmptyBottle]

Whether you succeed or not, will be hard on your family. If the method is not as sure to work, I would ask myself if I'm prepared to face my family in their pain if it doesn't go my way. I wish you well and all the best, sending love for whatever happens.

that is the thing, it will cause pain, regardless of the lethality (which has been compared to a roulette)

 

[moonleftdensetsu]

i didnt die. My family found me way earlier than i expected. I got hospitalize and I'm feeling fine right now. At least I got some attention I needed. Maybe I'll try again in future with more precise method.

 

[darksouls]

i didnt die. My family found me way earlier than i expected. I got hospitalize and I'm feeling fine right now. At least I got some attention I needed. Maybe I'll try again in future with more precise method.

wish you a speedy recovery

 

[karakoltriste]

i didnt die. My family found me way earlier than i expected. I got hospitalize and I'm feeling fine right now. At least I got some attention I needed. Maybe I'll try again in future with more precise method.

i'm sorry, I hope they don't put you in the psych ward... get well soon

 

[22yearsbroken]

As many have said .. med iverdise could make things worse eapecially those that can damage your liver...

I have and will go through liver damage untill my time it is not pleasent or nice or painless its awfull and painfull living with a busted liver.. the other side effects could be worse..
Id say.. just take a breath and re-think and re-evaluate...

 

[telekon]

I'm sorry it has come to this for you, but I believe it will be painful for your family No matter what... hard to get around that part.

Idk if drugs are a good idea honestly, they often will leave you alive and possibly in worse shape. Regardless, I hope you find peace.. whether it be in life or death.

Honestly, do something heinous. Your family will not love you anymore.

 

[FishRain3469]

That will Certainly work. As I will blow my fckn brains out, but Everybody is different which I hold Honor and Respect for.. Without a Doubt.

Just as I Believe they will Still love the OP ( myself or Whomever) from afar... Albeit in a different way.. -

 

[EmptyBottle]

Honestly, do something heinous. Your family will not love you anymore.

tbh, that heinous thing could be harmful or reckless, I'd advise against doing that. What if the OP needs resources from the family... or for the heinous activity, commits a nasty crime that harms someone innocent (doubt the OP would do that)

 

[theboy]

i didnt die. My family found me way earlier than i expected. I got hospitalize and I'm feeling fine right now. At least I got some attention I needed. Maybe I'll try again in future with more precise method.

Omg

 

[teemoney]

wishing you the best, and agency and dignity in whatever your next steps are <3