I wasnt meant to stay this long

[thereisnoone]

Does anyone else feel as though they were never meant to live this long or meant to leave at a certain time? It feels as though I have outlived my stay

 

[Timothy7dff]

Yep. Don't believe anyone who tells you it will get better. Seems like the planet is one giant deep state prison. They want their inmates alive and in pain.

 

[anothersadgirl]

Yes. It feels like I wasn't meant to stick around this long. Life is just throwing things at me over and over to push me over the edge. It's like fate is telling me it's time to go.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Yes, I definitely shouldn't have been alive for this long. I just shouldn't have. I should be dead already

 

[ADBoy777]

Feel the same. Like I don't belong to this world all I want is to leave it

 

[Username1359751]

Living on borrowed time. So in the afterlife I'm already in debt

 

[FuneralCry]

I was never meant for something as torturous and futile as existence in the first place, rather all I'm meant for is the peace of an dreamless eternal sleep. I only belong in eternal nothingness and more than anything I wish I never existed at all, only staying permanently unaware of the abomination that is existence is all that's ideal to me. It's a terrible tragedy to have the ability to exist as a conscious being who is destined to suffer, decay and die in this existence so undesirable and pointless, I wish I could just erase my existence so it's like I never existed at all.

 

[youshallrideeternal]

I was one of those "miracle" babies; doctors and medical professionals said I wasn't expected to live past 6 months. Now look at me, in my late thirties and chronically depressed, lol. I don't know, I've always felt, cursed, maybe, or, if you wanted to use a more modern-postmodern allegory, "a glitch in the Matrix." I feel like that everything that has happened, or, hasn't happened, was because I wasn't supposed to be here, I wasn't supposed to outlive those 6 months, and Time is just telling me of my constant uselessness.

 

[lizzywizzy09]

I was one of those "miracle" babies; doctors and medical professionals said I wasn't expected to live past 6 months. Now look at me, in my late thirties and chronically depressed, lol. I don't know, I've always felt, cursed, maybe, or, if you wanted to use a more modern-postmodern allegory, "a glitch in the Matrix." I feel like that everything that has happened, or, hasn't happened, was because I wasn't supposed to be here, I wasn't supposed to outlive those 6 months, and Time is just telling me of my constant uselessness.

My mother had numerous miscarriages before me. My great grandmother said they should stop trying as it wasn't meant to be. But they needed their band aid baby so I was born just to be ignored while I spent all my time on the computer, wasting away with an undiagnosed condition that nobody could be bothered to look into.

 

[dolemitedrums]

More that there were events and experiences I should have died before seeing / living through than having a certain proper length of life.