I wasn’t able to do it

[waterrrrrrrrrbottel]

Hi

I made a goodbye thread in march because i had genuinely intended to kill myself using SN that night.

I pussied out and really never updated you guys. I've been lurking. I'm sorry for not updating you. I'm sorry for that person who told me to pass a message in the afterlife.

I still have the SN, I smoke a lot more now. Nothing much has changed.

 

[sweetreliefpls]

No shame in changing your mind! I hope things improve for you over here.

 

[who doesn't matter]

Relax buddy.... it's not some obligation or commitment. It's normal be scared...hell, I have been trying to off myself for years and still I am here.

 

[spero_meliora]

There's no shame at all for changing your mind. We appreciate you coming back and letting us know how you are - I hope your situation improves.

 

[gothbird]

SI is brutal. It's just your body kicking in its survival protocol, nothing to be ashamed of. You're not a "pussy", and you're definitely not the only one who's backed out at the edge. Happens more than people admit.

You don't owe anyone an explanation. The option's still there, whenever or if ever you choose it. You're in control. No pressure and absolutely no judgement.

Good to hear from you. Welcome back.

 

[bankai]

It's not just you. Lot of people have never posted again after their farewell thread , although they've survived

It's embarrassing for them. But it doesn't really matter. Good on you for being mature enough to update us today.

Everyone is happy to have you around OP.

 

[waterrrrrrrrrbottel]

Thank you guys. I feel seen here.