sancta-simplicitas
Arcanist
- Dec 14, 2023
- 453
Not even a suicide hotline, a regular hotline. I should have known better, but it's the anniversary of my therapy trauma tomorrow and I don't know how to handle it and just needed someone to talk to.
I told the person what had happened, how I went to the private practising therapist who abused me because the public mental health services has abused me, which I went to because I was abused in childhood and then later by domestic violence. How I have lost just about everything important in my life in a year, how my ability to trust and experience human intimacy is completely shattered, how I've lost my income, how most of my friends fucked off (one of them in a very cruel way), how I hVe nowhere to turn and how I plan to CTB. They're not allowed to tell anyone what you tell them, no matter what you say to them (to the point you could confess to murder) so I figured it would be safe.
The person responds "I would like to advise you to go back to the mental health services."
Thank you. I have literal PTSD from seven years of psychiatric abuse and before then 13 years of having to carry around a misdiagnosis that infantilized me, turned my mother against me, had teachers assault me and completely broke my identity development. But thank you, very much. Oh wise one. I'll definitely give that another go. In fact, I quite enjoy getting pieces of my sould chewed up and spat out on the floor.
Now I feel worse. My date is in August, I'm seriously considering changing it to something earlier.
I told the person what had happened, how I went to the private practising therapist who abused me because the public mental health services has abused me, which I went to because I was abused in childhood and then later by domestic violence. How I have lost just about everything important in my life in a year, how my ability to trust and experience human intimacy is completely shattered, how I've lost my income, how most of my friends fucked off (one of them in a very cruel way), how I hVe nowhere to turn and how I plan to CTB. They're not allowed to tell anyone what you tell them, no matter what you say to them (to the point you could confess to murder) so I figured it would be safe.
The person responds "I would like to advise you to go back to the mental health services."
Thank you. I have literal PTSD from seven years of psychiatric abuse and before then 13 years of having to carry around a misdiagnosis that infantilized me, turned my mother against me, had teachers assault me and completely broke my identity development. But thank you, very much. Oh wise one. I'll definitely give that another go. In fact, I quite enjoy getting pieces of my sould chewed up and spat out on the floor.
Now I feel worse. My date is in August, I'm seriously considering changing it to something earlier.