I became emotionally attached with a girl here (she was @yasmine299), and although she never reciprocated (even rejecting me at the end), she was always in my thoughts. We last talked in 2024. I never contacted her again (because there is no point chasing someone if you are rejected), although I was hurt and sad. I had read somewhere that a rejection is final, and I was also somewhat sad and angry at her for rejecting me, so I never messaged her.
Since then, whenever I logged in to SaSu, it was only to check her account to see if she had made any new posts or when she was last online. I kept disabling my account because I really had no reason to be here except to check her profile. Thanks to @rainwillneverstop for always re-enabling my account whenever I raised a ticket.
I think that I keep remembering her because we all want to hold on to things that make us happy. I am not actively considering suicide now and I know that most of you guys have been going through much more hardship. Personally I found Stoic and Buddhist literature to be quite helpful. I am still far from being happy and normal, most of my time is still spent in overthinking and depression.
Another thing that makes me feel better is that I am not the only one going though this suffering. We all are. We are not alone in this. Even Buddha himself, when he saw a hill on fire, said that this world is burning. We all are burning with desires, passions, and vices, and we all devise our own ways to get through this.
So yeah, although my suffering has not yet reduced, since I know that I will continue to suffer before I die, I can only laugh at it. I hope you can too. :)
Since then, whenever I logged in to SaSu, it was only to check her account to see if she had made any new posts or when she was last online. I kept disabling my account because I really had no reason to be here except to check her profile. Thanks to @rainwillneverstop for always re-enabling my account whenever I raised a ticket.
I think that I keep remembering her because we all want to hold on to things that make us happy. I am not actively considering suicide now and I know that most of you guys have been going through much more hardship. Personally I found Stoic and Buddhist literature to be quite helpful. I am still far from being happy and normal, most of my time is still spent in overthinking and depression.
Another thing that makes me feel better is that I am not the only one going though this suffering. We all are. We are not alone in this. Even Buddha himself, when he saw a hill on fire, said that this world is burning. We all are burning with desires, passions, and vices, and we all devise our own ways to get through this.
So yeah, although my suffering has not yet reduced, since I know that I will continue to suffer before I die, I can only laugh at it. I hope you can too. :)
