I was in love with a girl here and she hasn't been online in a year

[allgoodthanks]

I became emotionally attached with a girl here (she was @yasmine299), and although she never reciprocated (even rejecting me at the end), she was always in my thoughts. We last talked in 2024. I never contacted her again (because there is no point chasing someone if you are rejected), although I was hurt and sad. I had read somewhere that a rejection is final, and I was also somewhat sad and angry at her for rejecting me, so I never messaged her.

Since then, whenever I logged in to SaSu, it was only to check her account to see if she had made any new posts or when she was last online. I kept disabling my account because I really had no reason to be here except to check her profile. Thanks to @rainwillneverstop for always re-enabling my account whenever I raised a ticket.

I think that I keep remembering her because we all want to hold on to things that make us happy. I am not actively considering suicide now and I know that most of you guys have been going through much more hardship. Personally I found Stoic and Buddhist literature to be quite helpful. I am still far from being happy and normal, most of my time is still spent in overthinking and depression.

Another thing that makes me feel better is that I am not the only one going though this suffering. We all are. We are not alone in this. Even Buddha himself, when he saw a hill on fire, said that this world is burning. We all are burning with desires, passions, and vices, and we all devise our own ways to get through this.

So yeah, although my suffering has not yet reduced, since I know that I will continue to suffer before I die, I can only laugh at it. I hope you can too. :)

 

[Catechism2282]

Yeah the buddhists certainly weren't lying about suffering lol. If you haven't yet also check out Mahavira (Jainism) it was my favorite during my spiritual journey stage when I still thought there was truth in the world.

 

[SASU-KE]

I became emotionally attached with a girl here (she was @yasmine299), and although she never reciprocated (even rejecting me at the end), she was always in my thoughts. We last talked in 2024. I never contacted her again (because there is no point chasing someone if you are rejected), although I was hurt and sad. I had read somewhere that a rejection is final, and I was also somewhat sad and angry at her for rejecting me, so I never messaged her.

Since then, whenever I logged in to SaSu, it was only to check her account to see if she had made any new posts or when she was last online. I kept disabling my account because I really had no reason to be here except to check her profile. Thanks to @rainwillneverstop for always re-enabling my account whenever I raised a ticket.

I think that I keep remembering her because we all want to hold on to things that make us happy. I am not actively considering suicide now and I know that most of you guys have been going through much more hardship. Personally I found Stoic and Buddhist literature to be quite helpful. I am still far from being happy and normal, most of my time is still spent in overthinking and depression.

Another thing that makes me feel better is that I am not the only one going though this suffering. We all are. We are not alone in this. Even Buddha himself, when he saw a hill on fire, said that this world is burning. We all are burning with desires, passions, and vices, and we all devise our own ways to get through this.

So yeah, although my suffering has not yet reduced, since I know that I will continue to suffer before I die, I can only laugh at it. I hope you can too. :)

It's a bit ironic that her Last Post says that she felt unloved even though she was I guess. I guess we really are helpless in the way we feel.

 

[3rdworldsadness]

Haha! I remember a same incident happened with me not in this site. But in a different platform until I got banned from there. He was a very very kind, and we used to talk on various things but things got a little nice when he said he liked me it brain circuited me cause i never thought someone could even 'like me' i hide my feelings cause it was very overwhelming. And he even started saying he loved me it was in 2023-2024 but I know what I am living with and my situation is hard to deal with, I loved him too, still i remember him and love him dearly. I soon deleted my discord, after saying my goodbye and saying he was the kindest person I've ever talked, his love was a kind thing for me. Reason of not continuing, is because of huge difference in his life and mine, he was Moroccan. I had so many issues I had to deal with and still dealing I didn't want to drag a kind loving person in my very bad situation. I hope he forgets me forever. And I'm sorry maybe the girl you love, in a situation where she wants to be alone or life circumstances happens or forgot her password, Whatever, I hope she is safe and in peace. Good luck to you too. Peace.