I was a normal person for three months.

[Seiko]

I left for vacation in an entirely different country. The trip lasted three months. During that time, I had so many friends. We'd go out to dinners. Go on random tours. Smoke joints and drink. Ride on boats and swim in oceans. I distinctly remember a time when I didn't have any cash for a drink and my friend said, "I'll spot you. Because you're my friend and I care about you." I had friends. People to talk to every day. Places to be.

And now I'm back in the states. My dopamine has plummeted. It's like being in a warm car and stepping out into a freezing night. I still text them and all, but it's not the same.

 

[Hollowillow]

It's not normal. The norm us to be overworked, obese, depressed...

But it should be life...

 

[Musketeer]

As someone who has citizenship in the u.s. and in Europe, Europe has a far better culture of taking care of yourself than the united states does.

 

[Fktw0rld]

"yeah, it was nice while it lasted."
•Bojack Horseman

 

[FuneralCry]

That is just the way that life is unfortunately. If someone is experiencing something positive then it's just something for them to lose and cause them to suffer more. Nothing in life lasts forever and all that humans are left with is memories that reminds them of what they have lost in life.

 

[lachrymost]

If someone is experiencing something positive then it's just something for them to lose and cause them to suffer more.

This is how I can't help but see things lately. Happiness precipates loss. For some people the strive for and enjoyment of happiness is enough. I do envy them sometimes. Even if the joy is transitory and not as profound as the consequent suffering, we're told it has to be enough for all of us. Why should we have to accept it?

 

[lionetta12]

I left for vacation in an entirely different country. The trip lasted three months. During that time, I had so many friends. We'd go out to dinners. Go on random tours. Smoke joints and drink. Ride on boats and swim in oceans. I distinctly remember a time when I didn't have any cash for a drink and my friend said, "I'll spot you. Because you're my friend and I care about you." I had friends. People to talk to every day. Places to be.

And now I'm back in the states. My dopamine has plummeted. It's like being in a warm car and stepping out into a freezing night. I still text them and all, but it's not the same.

There's only 2 things that give me dopamine and that makes me feel something. Being in love and traveling. I feel happy when I travel and when I love someone. If traveling all the time would be an option, maybe life wouldn't be so insufferable. Every time I come home from abroad, I get achutely suicidal and I have the worst time ever. It really sucks to go from being a normal happy person to just being in pain, feeling nothing again, and being depressed all the time.