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- Jul 27, 2024
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I met her on a language-learning app at the beginning of this year, and we've spoken almost every day since then. We've never met in person, but she's honestly the closest friend I've ever had. I've never shared as much with anyone outside my family as I have with her.
We met shortly before I developed my chronic illness and my mental health worsened significantly, and I became very suicidal. I told her after I first got sick, expecting her to ghost me or just get bored of me after I showed that I'm really just a depressed suicidal mess and not the confident, carefree funny guy that she originally started talking to. But she stuck by me, and she hasn't left.
Obviously the friendship isn't just one direction - I support her too. But it's mostly her supporting me when I have high-symptom days or periods of intense despair. We're both Christian and often her support is just quoting Bible verses, which doesn't resonate much with me in my darkest moments, but it's so wonderful to just have someone who cares. She's a far better friend than I deserve, and I'm so deeply thankful for her.
I hope that someday I can get my illness under control enough to actually go visit her (won't say what country for privacy reasons). But as of now I just can't, even though I have the money.
If I didn't have her support, I don't think I would be here today still. And I worry if I lose her friendship that will be the end for me. I don't tell her that because it's basically emotional blackmail, but it's the truth. I thank God for bringing her into my life.
We met shortly before I developed my chronic illness and my mental health worsened significantly, and I became very suicidal. I told her after I first got sick, expecting her to ghost me or just get bored of me after I showed that I'm really just a depressed suicidal mess and not the confident, carefree funny guy that she originally started talking to. But she stuck by me, and she hasn't left.
Obviously the friendship isn't just one direction - I support her too. But it's mostly her supporting me when I have high-symptom days or periods of intense despair. We're both Christian and often her support is just quoting Bible verses, which doesn't resonate much with me in my darkest moments, but it's so wonderful to just have someone who cares. She's a far better friend than I deserve, and I'm so deeply thankful for her.
I hope that someday I can get my illness under control enough to actually go visit her (won't say what country for privacy reasons). But as of now I just can't, even though I have the money.
If I didn't have her support, I don't think I would be here today still. And I worry if I lose her friendship that will be the end for me. I don't tell her that because it's basically emotional blackmail, but it's the truth. I thank God for bringing her into my life.
