Venting I want to recover but i cant!

[Merocero]

I want to recover. I had a good few weeks, started new meds and everything was going fine, but nope. My younger brother who is 9, keeps stealing shit from us (me and my sister) usually electronics. My mom cant teach this little shit anything, and frankly doesnt care unless i complain, im stuck parenting this kid! I snap and shout at him and everyone is suprised that i hate him! guess what! its not my fucking kid yet its apparently my responsibility! I cant work cause it makes me want to ctb, i cant live alone because how would i without work! I keep hoping that i snap and do something that gets me into a mental hospital(i cant ask to be admitted because my mom will make it all about herself) and now ill just start sh daily again because nothing else "helps". I hate this world.

 

[Lions303]

I'm really sorry your going through this. You are absolutely right the child is not yours and is not your responsibility, however you are the one stuck paying the price. Can I ask something (and sorry if i cross a boundary), have you spoken to your sister about it? (the younger brother not sh just to be clear) Whats your relationship like with her? Does she experience and feel the same way?