Venting i want to go home where the fuck am i

[pretzelsandballoons]

i already bothered my friend w a voice recording
yet here i am venting again
i want to kill myself
and i want to go leave my home country and jump off that bridge

i tried calling the helpline here but apparently i have no data which i should have because i fucking topped it off already
am i fucking stupid or what
im such a fucking idiot, absolute moron

im literally


my brain hurts
my chest hurts
i let myself cry already and i want to cry again but it doesnt matter
my hand had pins n needles during tutoring

i wanna kill myself bruv
and i think about how i mentioned before that maybe the best i can do is burn until i die rather than fade
i took a gulp of wine and it's fuckin disguting but it's all we had atmy paretnt s place and there was su[ppose to be whiskey but nada.
im still pissed at that I GUESS

i should just let myself cry agai even thomy aunt is there *again)
it's so fucking hi=t rggggggggggggjoi
im an absolutr moron for thinking i as an indidiviaul cn make this work, why did i think i can make this work, im literally high maintenence
im so done with this bitch (me) (yours truly)
im gna go chug the rest of my wine then idk
ive been listening to music w headphones on

gods im back in fucking limbo arent i
gods sakes
screw me
okok i have to do smt

just venting heredont mine me

thx,
harper

 

[BoneWeary57]

Hope you are feeling better today. Sometimes venting is all we can do until the emotions that overwhelm us are spent.