You are not going to find the strength to kill yourself if you don't even have the strength for reading a few articles on this website.
If you would reach any actual limit point then you would already be dead
I did read all of em, i don't know which to chose, if waiting for SN or hanging, I've been thinking about death for years now, tried couple of times, but failed due to people finding me and "saving me"
I want it to be planned because I cannot stand to fail, this is the reason of seeking help here.
I suggest you listen to some music and stay a little longer. Then, if your desire for death remains, decide carefully and proceed. Suicide should be planned because there's always chance for failure, and you don't want that. How you're feeling right now? Writing could help you through this better than an unplanned death.
It's been years I've been feeling like this, I tired everything, meds, therapy, support groups, Honestly I don't even remember if l ever been happy, I spent months on this website researching methods, considering the pro and the cons of each one of em, I researched photo to see how would end up my body after, I know the from the post it seems like an impulse decision, but it is only che outcome of all those years of suffering.