I really want to die. Not because I'm particularly in a lot of pain, but just because I've given up. I don't have any discipline and I don't want to put in effort to get better. Honestly, my life isn't even that bad. I have good parents and a partner that really cares about me. They would be devastated if I commit suicide. But, I am really just tired of living. I don't even want to try to be better. My therapist tells me to go outside for exercise, talk to my friends, etc. but I don't even want to try. I know I "should", but I just don't want to be happy and I don't want to participate in society. It all just seems like too much.
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 44,147
Your feelings are very much understandable. I hate how existing is viewed as being an obligation by so many, how like we must carry on at all costs and I really despise this kind of attitude. At least in my case I could never want anything to do with existing and for me life itself is enough of a reason to want to die.
Something so useless as existing could never be worth it for me and it's something so unappealing, as all that we are destined for is to suffer, deteriorate and die anyway. Suicide really should be accepted as being a personal choice in this society, like if some people want to stay here then good for them but they shouldn't force this onto everybody and invalidate other people who simply don't want to continue an existence they never even asked for in the first place.
Something so useless as existing could never be worth it for me and it's something so unappealing, as all that we are destined for is to suffer, deteriorate and die anyway. Suicide really should be accepted as being a personal choice in this society, like if some people want to stay here then good for them but they shouldn't force this onto everybody and invalidate other people who simply don't want to continue an existence they never even asked for in the first place.
the counselor i've been seeing keeps suggesting it, lol. i don't want to take any ssri's or anything of the sort. but recently i'm considering taking some supplements that supposedly help with mood, like st. john's wort. i just don't want to improve though.
yeah, the vast vast majority of people believe suicide is selfish. i do too, to an extent. the only reason i'm here is because i don't want to traumatize my family. but i don't see any point in making my life better. i'm surviving, not living.
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I think it's worth trying medication.
carnis-insanis
Member
- Feb 21, 2023
- 17
I feel like this now, im taking medication and im not sure if its taking effect, ive taken some in the past and they didnt work, its always worth trying, i mean whats the worst thing that could happen from it? if anything you get to overdose on them if they wont work
