Help I want to die but I'm afraid

[Coffeehead]

I have decided on a method (jumping from my 12foot apartment) and can CTB whenever...but I'm afraid. Some days are really good and I just feel like maybe if I hold on, but the second I get home I regret not jumping before. Any advice? Also, is my method possible, because I don't know how to overcome my SI...

 

[WAITING TO DIE]

Welcome to the forum.
I'm going by jumping too.
It's completely natural to be afraid and everyday is different.
Some days we feel more confident than others when it comes to CTB, yet ultimately we will always be frightened.
My plan is jumping from beachy head, a 530 feet drop.
I'm going to drink vodka until I'm drunk, but not too drunk so I dont know what I'm doing, and then blindfold myself before jumping.
I am thinking that the blindfold will help overcome survival instinct, because I won't see what's coming when I run towards the edge.

 

[FuneralCry]

The jumping method sounds terrifying to me, I imagine that those who succedeed had access to a high enough place and were so determined to be free, I envy those people as now they are at peace. But anyway I certainly understand that it's dreadful feeling trapped here, it really should be much more straightforward to die.

 

[DEATH IS FREEDOM]

All people are afraid of death. Choose another method.

 

[Lookoutbelow]

Welcome to the forum.
I'm going by jumping too.
It's completely natural to be afraid and everyday is different.
Some days we feel more confident than others when it comes to CTB, yet ultimately we will always be frightened.
My plan is jumping from beachy head, a 530 feet drop.
I'm going to drink vodka until I'm drunk, but not too drunk so I dont know what I'm doing, and then blindfold myself before jumping.
I am thinking that the blindfold will help overcome survival instinct, because I won't see what's coming when I run towards the edge.

To add to this, I am a jumper as well. My plan is to step off the outdoor elevator, run and hop a small railing 16 floors. No stopping to look down.

 

[bridgegirl]

Welcome to the forum.
I'm going by jumping too.
It's completely natural to be afraid and everyday is different.
Some days we feel more confident than others when it comes to CTB, yet ultimately we will always be frightened.
My plan is jumping from beachy head, a 530 feet drop.
I'm going to drink vodka until I'm drunk, but not too drunk so I dont know what I'm doing, and then blindfold myself before jumping.
I am thinking that the blindfold will help overcome survival instinct, because I won't see what's coming when I run towards the edge.

Another one for jumping (guess that's obvious by my username). I never would've thought to get drunk first, that's not a bad idea. I don't think I could do a blindfold though, I need to see the end rushing at me. My drop I have planned out though isn't as far as yours.

The jumping method sounds terrifying to me, I imagine that those who succedeed had access to a high enough place and were so determined to be free, I envy those people as now they are at peace. But anyway I certainly understand that it's dreadful feeling trapped here, it really should be much more straightforward to die.

I used to think I could never do it that way, but it became very attractive to me.

To add to this, I am a jumper as well. My plan is to step off the outdoor elevator, run and hop a small railing 16 floors. No stopping to look down.

A lot of people do it quickly like that when they jump. I haven't reached that point yet anytime I've been on the ledge. I sit and agonize. It sucks and I'm a coward.

 

[Lookoutbelow]

Another one for jumping (guess that's obvious by my username). I never would've thought to get drunk first, that's not a bad idea. I don't think I could do a blindfold though, I need to see the end rushing at me. My drop I have planned out though isn't as far as yours.

I used to think I could never do it that way, but it became very attractive to me.

A lot of people do it quickly like that when they jump. I haven't reached that point yet anytime I've been on the ledge. I sit and agonize. It sucks and I'm a coward.

Don't be to hard on yourself. We are all still here so, that means no matter what advice we give we haven't been able to follow through with it ourselves.....yet!

 

[swandive]

All people are afraid of death. Choose another method.

What is the the biggest fear about jumping for you? I sometimes get so close to doing it and then i can't follow thru and feel like even more of a failure.

 

[BlazingBob]

I don't have any advice. I'm scared too.

 

[bridgegirl]

Don't be to hard on yourself. We are all still here so, that means no matter what advice we give we haven't been able to follow through with it ourselves.....yet!

I was very close last month. I can't get that day out of my head.