Bosty
Member
- Jul 6, 2020
- 17
Im planning for the stat method with SN tonight and I'm realizing how much I don't want to die. I feel more alone than I've ever felt in my life and I've been crying all day. I can hardly speak without crying and have been hiding from my family almost the entire day. I'm terrified, and I'm so alone. I'm planning to leave around 2am, and hoping this works. I have no antiemetics, but I will prepare four cups of SN should I throw up. I don't want to die. I don't want to live. This world wasn't made for people like me. I never had a chance. I'm so scared. I want to reach out to somebody, but I know that I can't. So this is it. I can't handle being so alone anymore.