Help I want to commit suicide, but im scared of the possible consequences should i fail.

[JowyBoy02]

So i want to commit suicide

I'm not scared of death or the pain trough my method, wich is objectively a very brutal and painful method, but it's genuinely the only one i could figure out.
However i am scared of the possible consequences should i fail the attempt. Brain damage, mute, disabled, coma, vegetable state, such.

Does anyone have advice about this matter? I seriously can't handle living on and my life has really just been shit the recent time. Same time what i just explain makes me scared of attempting suicide.

Death is really the only option i got for peace and comfort, but it seems so difficult to actually take my life. It is to the point tough where i feel like i should have to take the risk and attempt it.

I also want to mention that because the last 8+ months i've always had the mindset that i will take suicide soon, i've sadly made "avoidable" choices that actually made problems worse. l

Context: I got more problems then i can really keep track. All related to my body or appearance. Essentially the last year or so has been a train-wreck of new problems constantly developing or getting worse. I can't fix most of them and can't handle living with them.

 

[Drimacus]

You can always minimize the risk of failure with careful planning and execution. But unfortunately there is always a risk of failure with every method. Anyone who has definitely decided to CTB should just take that risk and commit. I don't see any other options...

 

[FuneralCry]

I agree that planning can reduce risk of failure, when people act on impulse, failure is more likely. For some methods being found too early can cause failure, so I would make sure that nobody else is around. Fear of failure is the one thing that holds me back, I would do anything for an peaceful exit. It is hard to be in a hopeless situation, I know how you feel.

 

[JackTheStripper]

I agree on planning everything perfectly too.
And you could also combine two methods. I'd suggest combining a brutal method (hanging, sliding your wrist) with something like SN, Caffeine OD, Drug od, etc..
So if you're found too early and taken to the hospital, the doctors would treat the obvious problems first.
And while they're busy doing that, you could die of the chemicals you took.

But tbh, there is no way to avoid the possibility of being saved.
It could always happen.

 

[JowyBoy02]

I agree on planning everything perfectly too.
And you could also combine two methods. I'd suggest combining a brutal method (hanging, sliding your wrist) with something like SN, Caffeine OD, Drug od, etc..
So if you're found too early and taken to the hospital, the doctors would treat the obvious problems first.
And while they're busy doing that, you could die of the chemicals you took.

But tbh, there is no way to avoid the possibility of being saved.
It could always happen.

I always thought combining methods was really clever. Tough i'm not sure wich i would add.

My method is cutting my throat…
Reason was that i don't have access to guns or drugs and i dind know what else to do. I'm kinda dumb tbh and i can't really figure much out. Got two hunting knifes. Idea is to cut my throat from each side simultaneously, crossing arms. Like right over left, practiced it a bit and feels the least awkward.

For preparation i figured two beers, i get affected very easily, should be enough to make it easier. Last time i messed up and drank three, got wasted and laid on the bathroom floor for hours, had no idea what was going on.

I will also listen to very loud death metal, figured it would help drown me a bit and kinda "pump" or pressure me up. Also will take something that i got as sleeping pills, hit me pretty hard.

My dad will be gone for two weeks now, left today. I got no friends or social circle so i would hope i would be left unchecked for atleast some days.

Plan is doing it on Friday this week, my birthday, can't really handle going on anymore and i figured my birthday would be fitting, will be alone anyways as said.

I agree that planning can reduce risk of failure, when people act on impulse, failure is more likely. For some methods being found too early can cause failure, so I would make sure that nobody else is around. Fear of failure is the one thing that holds me back, I would do anything for an peaceful exit. It is hard to be in a hopeless situation, I know how you feel.

Yea.

Well my ideal suicide method might honestly have been shotgun to head. Very brutal, but it would be instant and death would be almost guaranteed.
If i had one, i would do it right now tbh.

It's a shitty feeling to feel stuck in a life you simply can't handle, it's like i don't even know what to say. It's just, i don't know, really black or something?

You can always minimize the risk of failure with careful planning and execution. But unfortunately there is always a risk of failure with every method. Anyone who has definitely decided to CTB should just take that risk and commit. I don't see any other options...

Yeah you kinda just gotta do it. Honestly if it's that or this then i just gotta. Besides honestly if i end up in a vegetable state or such, will it really be worse? Most if not all my problems would be irrelevant then and i can imagine the new problem would be less affecting in the sense that, forexample in a vegetable state, your just kinda not there right, you don't know what's going on or don't understand anything. It's a horrible, horrible state for sure, but it may actually not be worse i suppose?

 

[JackTheStripper]

If you get affected by alcohol very easily why dont you climb onto a roof or something high. You could get drunk once you're up there and stand rly close to the edge so once you pass out from the alcohol you'll fall over the edge.

You could do it at night, too and since humans dont tend to look up, you wouldn't be noticed until it's too late.
Plus, if the building's high enough to do the trick there is no way saving you...

 

[JowyBoy02]

If you get affected by alcohol very easily why dont you climb onto a roof or something high. You could get drunk once you're up there and stand rly close to the edge so once you pass out from the alcohol you'll fall over the edge.

You could do it at night, too and since humans dont tend to look up, you wouldn't be noticed until it's too late.
Plus, if the building's high enough to do the trick there is no way saving you...

Yes, but i literally got no damn idea of a building i can do it at. I genuinely am not aware of any high buildings near i live that i got access to the top of

Never really understood how that works, maybe i'm just dumb, do people just spot a tall structure, somehow go inside and take a elevator to the top? Maybe it's just where i live, but i got view over my city from our balcony and i don't recall any buildings as such

 

[Wisdom3_1-9]

I would just add to be careful about which methods you combine. It's possible for one method to have a negating or adverse effect on the other. For example, if taking SN, don't involve alcohol or other drugs in the process at all. Again, the research and planning is what's important.