I want to believe so badly it will get better

[wasteofspace22]

But I can't, I know normal people who end up living normal lives never have these thoughts and emotions. I'm so fucked that I shouldn't have been born. I'm a genetic mistake. I wish stuff was different so fucking bad. But I can't change it, and I'm ruined and gone. Idk what to do, give it more time or what. I'm 19 but I have no hope

 

[Someone123]

WHat are the people who are close to you in your life like- family or friends or maybe extended family? Maybe there is some way to connect with some people who are nice to you- that could be a way for things to get better- maybe there is some hope in something like this.

 

[Worndown]

What thoughts and emotions? At the age if 19 you might just be entering a hell that can be mitigated or tempered. (I would not say managed just yet.) Do you know what resources are available in your area? Some cost money but some do not. Check it out please.

 

[FuneralCry]

This life really is so unfair. I'm sorry that you are going through this. It's sad how so many people endure existences filled with misery and I know that it's hard to carry on when everything feels so hopeless. I wish you relief from suffering.

 

[notocarpediem]

Lots of 'normal people' do have periods of feeling suicidal - I know I did when I was your age and I went on to have a successful career, get married and enjoy experiences in life. That's not to say I didn't have periods of anxiety or depression…but they were manageable. Other circumstances have brought me back to thoughts of suicide. Things can and often do change…

 

[uglylonely]

same. except i know it cant get better. i dont want to feel this way. theres nothing i can do abt it except ctb

 

[Funeralprincess]

Being 25 now, I wish I would've ended It all at your age. Life usually gets worse

 

[wasteofspace22]

I am in the same situation but still indesesive about when to ctb. If you want my honest advice: do it.
If you are sure that your problem cannot be solved and no one in your life wants to help you, there is only one way out.

Anyway, it is you who chooses what to do with your life, do what you prefer. I wish the best for you

I have parents that want to help me that's the thing I'm unsure but I feel like it won't get better

 

[Someone123]

I have parents that want to help me that's the thing I'm unsure but I feel like it won't get better

That is a big factor that can help. but one thing I would worry about is- did they teach you good social skills for how top make friends? Because this could lead to depression. If this is an issue there are many very helpful videos on how to make friends on youtube. Are you going to school or working? All of these things can help you to build a network fo support of family, friends, and when you are stable hopefully, a relationship.

 

[Ginnn]

I have parents that want to help me that's the thing I'm unsure but I feel like it won't get better

If your parents really want to help you, that means someone in this world loves you, take that into account, that is the first step to change your entire life. Can I know what's the problem? Maybe I can help you in some way

 

[hellispink]

I have decades waiting for it to get better. But this world is selfish, evil, and injustice is the everyday thing. It only gets worse with the years. Every life stage comes with disgrace.

 

[wasteofspace22]

I have decades waiting for it to get better. But this world is selfish, evil, and injustice is the everyday thing. It only gets worse with the years. Every life stage comes with disgrace.

Fucking brutal

 

[przeciwwymiotne]

But I can't, I know normal people who end up living normal lives never have these thoughts and emotions. I'm so fucked that I shouldn't have been born. I'm a genetic mistake. I wish stuff was different so fucking bad. But I can't change it, and I'm ruined and gone. Idk what to do, give it more time or what. I'm 19 but I have no hope

I'm 19 too, it pisses me off that we didn't get to have a longer life, so many ppl say 19 is young and it's the best time of your life. And we're already fucking ruined and gone.

Being 25 now, I wish I would've ended It all at your age. Life usually gets worse

Sad but true

 

[mentalhealthfighter]

Being 25 now, I wish I would've ended It all at your age. Life usually gets worse

Shit. It really does get worse

 

[Someone123]

Fucking brutal

For me, I am in my fifties and I have learned the lessons I needed to know in my twenties or thirties to get my life to work, but I've just run out of time. There are so many opportunities in your twenties and thirties that go away over time- if you can lern the right things, how to build a network of people who care abouyt you and how to get a good career going, life can get better- potentially, you still need to be the judge of your own situation.

 

[Funeralprincess]

Shit. It really does get worse

It really does. Very rarely will a big positive change happen. I have regrets about not ending my life sooner. This place is hell

 

[rationaltake]

So sorry you're in such a bad place. You say you badly want to believe things will get better. So it seems you want to try? What have you got to lose by asking your parents for help? Maybe try posting in the Recovery Section on here too asking if anyone has any ideas.