i want to be rescued

[star_0]

i sometimes daydream about someone capable and strong coming into my life and saving me. i wish we would meet in some sort of fortuitous encounter and eventually become close. they would help me with all the problems i cant fix alone and care for me until i become just as capable as they are. and one day i'd wake up and realize i dont want to ctb anymore because im happy. yes i know this is kinda weird and selfish. i used to think about this obsessively years ago but it died down a bit... it started coming to my mind again because i wish someone would help me pass my exams cuz im struggling to study

 

[SchizoPolyGymnast]

Same

 

[shiny_quill]

i sometimes daydream about someone capable and strong coming into my life and saving me. i wish we would meet in some sort of fortuitous encounter and eventually become close. they would help me with all the problems i cant fix alone and care for me until i become just as capable as they are. and one day i'd wake up and realize i dont want to ctb anymore because im happy. yes i know this is kinda weird and selfish. i used to think about this obsessively years ago but it died down a bit... it started coming to my mind again because i wish someone would help me pass my exams cuz im struggling to study

If you're in college, maybe try to look up if there are any study groups available for you to join, just being surrounded by people can "pressure" you into studying more and you get to help each others out

The idea of a singular "savior" is cute, but also a bit unlikely, and clinging too much to it can become harmful or toxic if you do meet someone who could be that. Friends, family and such can all sort of fill in areas of that role for you and help you in diverse areas, which is usually healtier than relying on one person, especially when you're feeling suicidal

All that said, if you want help, I hope you're able to find it, be it a person, a support system, a pet or anything else that might come into your life

 

[Dejected 55]

I get the fantasy of it... and I'm at the point where I could only be motivated to want to continue IF someone rescued me. But you eventually realize it isn't realistic to wish to be saved because it just doesn't really happen.

 

[TANETS]

Yeah same. Since I was younger is pick and celebrity to fantasize about saving me. Once you become an adult you become ashamed of it but people like us dont have much a choice.