I want to be loved

[TheHatedOne]

I don't care what judgements I will receive because I dare want something like this considering how I am, but anyways I'm the antagonist of everywhere so what would I expect.

Anyways, even if I try to suppress my feelings as much as possible, shrugging it off, cause that's what I have done my whole life . cause why couldn't I be like everyone else and be loved and appreciated at least by 1 person? Naaah, I had to be the o8tcast of shit and be shunned away everywhere or ostracized. So, even if I try yo shrug it off, these feelings don't let me at peacem . they refuse to leave me. So there it is, I'll say:

I want to rfuciing be loved, I want to have my feelings r3ciprocated at least for fuckint once, I beg for even one second for I will cherish even this on3 second for th3 whole that remained out of this miserable existence. Funny how it's 3 am and I'm saying my deepest feelings.

I know that I'm actively planning to go and that there's not much left, but I wish I could experience whay it is to feel having feelings actually reciprocated for one second, to have someone love you, and not just used as a pretext only to be hurt. I know its horrible of me t9 want this in such a context, but I really wanted to know how it is.

I don't know why everyone else gets to be appreciated, admired , loved, cared for and then there's me. What did I do to have this? Wasn't I born a human? Like everyone else? Am I really a monster?


Im the most undesired and hated pos that there is. No one wants me to be here (anywhere in general I mean) and I could have the worst of the worst happen to me, no one would carem.

I know that I was kept being hurt in search for "maybe I will actually find that person who will love me" only to be hurt even more. I don't know why bit had to be like this for me.

Maybe I'm really q monster and I deserve it? If past lives actually exist, I must've been Stalin or something that I'm having it like this in the present life.

If anyone actually bothered to read this, thank you. Also I'm sorry for the typosz, I'm drunk. Ithink I will get back into drinking daily, I can't anymore.

 

[ItsMe-Hecked]

I don't have anything to say other than, I feel this. It's not a tolerable feeling at all. I'm really sorry you're going through this suffering.

 

[Julgran]

Life has simply dealt you a set of cards that don't match with the expectations that you were given growing up.

No, if you were Stalin in a previous life, people would flock to you - his moustache was adorable

I'm in the same situation as you, and do know that you and I are not alone in this boat called loneliness. If you are interested, have a look at this interview - it breaks down the current dating dynamics in a clear way:




In a nutshell, we are too many men on this planet, and no one tought men how to live up to women's standards - while some men sleep around with most women. In the end, no one will be happy.

 

[TheHatedOne]

Life has simply dealt you a set of cards that don't match with the expectations that you were given growing up.

No, if you were Stalin in a previous life, people would flock to you - his moustache was adorable

I'm in the same situation as you, and do know that you and I are not alone in this boat called loneliness. If you are interested, have a look at this interview - it breaks down the current dating dynamics in a clear way:




In a nutshell, we are too many men on this planet, and no one tought men how to live up to women's standards - while some men sleep around with most women. In the end, no one will be happy.

I'm not only talking about romantic love here but any kind of love in general. I still can't wrap around my mind about how people around me manage to find love regardless of gender.

 

[Julgran]

I'm not only talking about romantic love here but any kind of love in general. I still can't wrap around my mind about how people around me manage to find love regardless of gender.

I'm not sure what other type of love you are speaking of. Do you mean that you long for sex? It's also a complex subject, which they cover in the video that I linked to.

I'm very sorry for your circumstances. Do you have any friends who you could go out with, or maybe ask if they know a single person who you might be interested in?

I just don't know how to solve this problem, but I also think that it can't be solved. Humanity will eventually die out due to us being too few people on this planet.

 

[TheHatedOne]

I'm not sure what other type of love you are speaking of. Do you mean that you long for sex? It's also a complex subject, which they cover in the video that I linked to.

I'm very sorry for your circumstances. Do you have any friends who you could go out with, or maybe ask if they know a single person who you might be interested in?

I just don't know how to solve this problem, but I also think that it can't be solved. Humanity will eventually die out due to us being too few people on this planet.

No, I don't long for sex. However, I think there are many kinds of love other than romantic one. Parental love or platonic lov3 for example.

I don't have any friends. I have no one. I'm all by myself as I was most of my life. You'd think I'd get used to it by now, but... Yeah.

Why do you think we are too few? I mean, IMO we are pretty much overpopulated, but strangely, also lonelier than ever.

 

[gottago222]

Life has simply dealt you a set of cards that don't match with the expectations that you were given growing up.

No, if you were Stalin in a previous life, people would flock to you - his moustache was adorable

I'm in the same situation as you, and do know that you and I are not alone in this boat called loneliness. If you are interested, have a look at this interview - it breaks down the current dating dynamics in a clear way:




In a nutshell, we are too many men on this planet, and no one tought men how to live up to women's standards - while some men sleep around with most women. In the end, no one will be happy.

shit like this just cracks me up. people overthink to the max when it comes to relationships. there are just simply too many single people in the world to be lonely. people just have super duper UNREALISTIC standards and thats what keeps them single for forever and ever. there is no perfection in relationships. once you can accept this, then maybe you will find "the one"

 

[Julgran]

No, I don't long for sex. However, I think there are many kinds of love other than romantic one. Parental love or platonic lov3 for example.

I don't have any friends. I have no one. I'm all by myself as I was most of my life. You'd think I'd get used to it by now, but... Yeah.

I understand.

Have you looked into meet-up groups? There might be some in your areas, where people come together over a common interest.

Why do you think we are too few? I mean, IMO we are pretty much overpopulated, but strangely, also lonelier than ever.

I meant that humanity will die out in the future - not that we are underpopulated right now. People are simply not connecting, forming families and reproducing. As a consequence of smartphones, tablets and a dating culture that favors singlehood - instead of in-person activities and family life - it's a foregone conclusion that humanity will continue to decrease in numbers.

 

[Gaybonez]

I don't care what judgements I will receive because I dare want something like this considering how I am, but anyways I'm the antagonist of everywhere so what would I expect.

Anyways, even if I try to suppress my feelings as much as possible, shrugging it off, cause that's what I have done my whole life . cause why couldn't I be like everyone else and be loved and appreciated at least by 1 person? Naaah, I had to be the o8tcast of shit and be shunned away everywhere or ostracized. So, even if I try yo shrug it off, these feelings don't let me at peacem . they refuse to leave me. So there it is, I'll say:

I want to rfuciing be loved, I want to have my feelings r3ciprocated at least for fuckint once, I beg for even one second for I will cherish even this on3 second for th3 whole that remained out of this miserable existence. Funny how it's 3 am and I'm saying my deepest feelings.

I know that I'm actively planning to go and that there's not much left, but I wish I could experience whay it is to feel having feelings actually reciprocated for one second, to have someone love you, and not just used as a pretext only to be hurt. I know its horrible of me t9 want this in such a context, but I really wanted to know how it is.

I don't know why everyone else gets to be appreciated, admired , loved, cared for and then there's me. What did I do to have this? Wasn't I born a human? Like everyone else? Am I really a monster?


Im the most undesired and hated pos that there is. No one wants me to be here (anywhere in general I mean) and I could have the worst of the worst happen to me, no one would carem.

I know that I was kept being hurt in search for "maybe I will actually find that person who will love me" only to be hurt even more. I don't know why bit had to be like this for me.

Maybe I'm really q monster and I deserve it? If past lives actually exist, I must've been Stalin or something that I'm having it like this in the present life.

If anyone actually bothered to read this, thank you. Also I'm sorry for the typosz, I'm drunk. Ithink I will get back into drinking daily, I can't anymore.

Find yourself and love yourself instead. That's the best advice I can give you. It's hell though, I know. I used to be suicidal every second of the day. I come here from time to time to remind others that no matter how dark it is, it can get better.

Life has simply dealt you a set of cards that don't match with the expectations that you were given growing up.

No, if you were Stalin in a previous life, people would flock to you - his moustache was adorable

I'm in the same situation as you, and do know that you and I are not alone in this boat called loneliness. If you are interested, have a look at this interview - it breaks down the current dating dynamics in a clear way:




In a nutshell, we are too many men on this planet, and no one tought men how to live up to women's standards - while some men sleep around with most women. In the end, no one will be happy.

OP, for the love of god ignore this guy. The last thing you need is to fall into the incel rabithole.

 

[DasDasDAS]

Damn man I kinda feel the same. I'm sorry you got into this...
Loneliness is perhaps one of the most cruel ways to die....

 

[Julgran]

shit like this just cracks me up. people overthink to the max when it comes to relationships. there are just simply too many single people in the world to be lonely. people just have super duper UNREALISTIC standards and thats what keeps them single for forever and ever. there is no perfection in relationships. once you can accept this, then maybe you will find "the one"

I accept your opinion, but I'm afraid it's too simplistic. People are too self-centered today, which means that they probably won't think how their future life will progress.

OP, for the love of god ignore this guy. The last thing you need is to fall into the incel rabithole.

I accept your opinion, but you are welcome to contribute to the matter at hand at any time you want, instead of saying unthoughtful things like this.

Now that @AverageFanEnjoyer has made clear what this thread is about, this kind of discussion isn't needed, though, since it's not love or sex that he/she is looking for.

It was my mistake to expand the subject of loneliness.

 

[TheHatedOne]

Find yourself and love yourself instead.

I think you forget where we are. We aren't on Reddit here. I'm sick to oblivion to receive this... uhmmmm, advice? I don't even know why people keep spitting this, if you start to love yourself it doesn't mean that people will flock to your feet. Trust me when I say that I have been to BOTH EXTREMES. There was a time when I actually loved myself. Was I loved back? Never. I'm not being rude or anything, I'm just tired of sseeing and hearing this everywhere. You do it as a personal preference and that's it.

 

[Gaybonez]

I think you forget where we are. We aren't on Reddit here. I'm sick to oblivion to receive this... uhmmmm, advice? I don't even know why people keep spitting this, if you start to love yourself it doesn't mean that people will flock to your feet. Trust me when I say that I have been to BOTH EXTREMES. There was a time when I actually loved myself. Was I loved back? Never. I'm not being rude or anything, I'm just tired of sseeing and hearing this everywhere. You do it as a personal preference and that's it.

So your preferred scenario is just wanting to be loved and feel loved by another and you could care less about yourself in the meantime? Or is that off? What's your ideal reality? What specifically does it entail? How would this relationship play out?

 

[TheHatedOne]

So your preferred scenario is just wanting to be loved and feel loved by another and you could care less about yourself in the meantime? Or is that off? What's your ideal reality? What specifically does it entail? How would this relationship play out?

I'm not sure anymore because I'll be gone soon, this is why I feel horrible for still wanting this, I don't think I ever stopped wishing for this, no matter how much I told myself so.

 

[meetapple]

It is a cruel world in which people with desired characteristics get a relatively easy life and others with characteristics that are not normal get ridiculed and mistreated. I am sorry your family was so abusive because they should have been a source of the love you desired. Are there any college groups you could join in which you have interest? You might not find love but at least companionship.

 

[Gaybonez]

I'm not sure anymore because I'll be gone soon, this is why I feel horrible for still wanting this, I don't think I ever stopped wishing for this, no matter how much I told myself so.

I've never walked in your shoes nor experienced anything like what you're going through so I can't relate to you. I never struggled with that. I'll let you in on a secret though. Love from another will never leave you truly happy. That comes from within. It's cliche but beyond true. Do what you will. I wish you the best.

Source: I am in love with another man and it definitely does not solve my problems.

 

[TheHatedOne]

It is a cruel world in which people with desired characteristics get a relatively easy life and others with characteristics that are not normal get ridiculed and mistreated. I am sorry your family was so abusive because they should have been a source of the love you desired. Are there any college groups you could join in which you have interest? You might not find love but at least companionship.

I dropped out. I agree with you tho, some get to see the fairy tale while others only get misery.

I've never walked in your shoes nor experienced anything like what you're going through so I can't relate to you. I never struggled with that. I'll let you in on a secret though. Love from another will never leave you truly happy. That comes from within. It's cliche but beyond true. Do what you will. I wish you the best.

Source: I am in love with another man and it definitely does not solve my problems.

Of course, it's not problem solving and I didn't even talk about this. However, having sometjing like that would make stuff more bearable and I think it's a really nice thing to experience. Someone to actually love you and not lure you in order to hurt you after.

all this aside, i wanted to talk with someone before i die, however i dont think i should do it because it will only be a failure. they already have a lot of people. nvm.

 

[Gaybonez]

I dropped out. I agree with you tho, some get to see the fairy tale while others only get misery.

Of course, it's not problem solving and I didn't even talk about this. However, having sometjing like that would make stuff more bearable and I think it's a really nice thing to experience. Someone to actually love you and not lure you in order to hurt you after.

all this aside, i wanted to talk with someone before i die, however i dont think i should do it because it will only be a failure. they already have a lot of people. nvm.

Can I ask what you studied?

 

[souljah222]

i think many ppl on this site feel exaclty like this. not trying to make it small or anything just so you know at least were not alone with this in some way. my inboxes still open tho idk why your posts always stick out to me but it feels like everytime i open this app i see another post from you. hope youre feeling somewhat okay and sleep well :)

 

[TheHatedOne]

Can I ask what you studied?

foreign languages.

 

[Gaybonez]

foreign languages.

Why throw in the towel?

 

[TheHatedOne]

Why throw in the towel?

reasons i have stated in many of my other posts, i dont want really to remember it. but to put it briefly: abuse from teachers and difficulties with one of the languages i was learning.

 

[TheHatedOne]

Another thing iis that today i broke down in a horrible way and even if someone was near me they didn[t do anything. seems like i dont deserve even basic comfort, let alone love. i tried to cut after.

 

[bleeeeeep]

it's so difficult wanting love/companionship but having the feeling you don't deserve it or can't ever attain it. really hope you find some comfort knowing there are others who feel the same way, your post resonates with me a lot

 

[Salkak]

I can relate to this. I know I might probably kill myself but before that I wanna know what it feels like to be loved(not in a sexual way) . Maybe for just a single day. My anxiety never allowed me to ever have any close relationships with anyone. I have just a single friend with whom I cannot share my feelings because I don't want lose her. I've lost all my friends after they found out about my last attempt. So all my conversations with her are usually me listening to how her life is going. I cannot talk to my mother about how feel because I don't want her to cry. I avoid talking to siblings because I don't want my insanity to have any negative affect on them. My anxiety has made my life so small. I want a hug and be told maybe everything can be alright. But it's something I can't have. It's so lonely. I never even knew it was possible to feel so lost and lonely.

 

[Gsvko]

I'm dumb and a mess, but my inbox's open as well.
Can relate to going from a cold bitch to a needy human, for me it's yucky and I don't like it.
Sorry <3

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

I wish I had the ability to reach through the screen and give everyone real hug's. I don't care if it's girls or guys.
I just wish I could ease everyone's pain.

 

[rationaltake]

@AverageFanEnjoyer Just to say I understand. I wish I could help. I always read your posts. You're obviously an amazing person. You don't deserve this. I'm guessing you just want an authentic connection with somebody. I find it hard to say much due to my own issues. I feel for you.

 

[FuneralCry]

It is perfectly understandable, wanting to be loved. People can be cruel and selfish and I'm sorry you have had to suffer like that. No one should have to go through this. This life can be very depressing and I know it can be a dreadful feeling when each day brings so much pain. I wish you the best.

 

[O_oreo.]

Dios, me siento igual que tu, y de repeso te dicen cosas como: alguien te amara, dale tiempo y pues jeje, llevo toda mi vida en espera XD
o te culpan con cosas como: si no te amas, nadie mas lo hara, sabes como haces sentir con esas simples palabras?
somos seres humanos, merecemos amor independientemente de lo que seamos, a mi me han rechazado siempre o me buscan con otros propositos y eso es realmente deprimente mientras el resto del mundo puede ser feliz, creo que eso me ha dado mas noches cuestionandome y estando desanimada
lo se, en una mujer es raro pero con un fisico que no es atractivo es como si nacieras condenado y eso es realmente injusto...
aunque veo a otras personas que son iguales pero tienen demasiados pretendientes y eso me hace llegar a la pregunta: en verdad soy tan horrible como ser humano que nadie me ha dicho que esa es la razon por la que nadie quiere estar conmigo?
leyendo este tipo de publicaciones me siento reconfortada de que no soy la unica (solía pensar así), tal vez tengamos que aceptarlo aunque duela un poco al principio.