Venting I want someone to murder me....

[MiMif]

I was so excited after I got a ctb date but I backed out. I actually doubt I can even get the courage to kill myself no matter how much I dream and wish for death it's frustrating. I plan it all out and get ready but once the time comes I just can't bring myself to do it

All my problems would be solved if someone decided to drop a bomb on me or some physco just went up and stabbed me to death. I'm not sure I would want them to kill me quickly cause I want to see my guts spill out. Maybe I should walk around with a shirt saying please kill me. I'll even help them plan how to cover it up just please ..I want to die but am too much of a coward to do it myself.

Jumping is what I want to do but at this point I might just do partial hanging I'm not sure I have to guts for jumping. People who do are honestly amazing and have all my respect

 

[Sleeper System]

I've had dreams where I went with someone to the top of a building or into the woods and witnessed them CTB'ing so they wouldn't be alone.
I'm sure the person dying would be grateful but the world would label the observer as evil or taking pleasure in seeing other pass.
Sadly, ctb is a lonely activity in most cases and it's probably for good reason.

 

[wanttodie]

me to want someone to stab me to death. or shot me in my heart I'd take the plan as long as I died

 

[divinemistress36]

I have fantasies about someone murdering me all the time

 

[ATort]

This is why I'd love to have some sort of suicide pact, I think it could be nice to plan it out together with someone and get eachother to go through with it, I've always backed out too. To not have to be alone In those final moments would bring me comfort. unfortunately, I don't know anyone who would be willing to do it with me, and I don't want to "persuade" a friend because that is definitely crossing a line, how do you approach a friend for that even if they would be down for something like that..

 

[MiMif]

This is why I'd love to have some sort of suicide pact, I think it could be nice to plan it out together with someone and get eachother to go through with it, I've always backed out too. To not have to be alone In those final moments would bring me comfort. unfortunately, I don't know anyone who would be willing to do it with me, and I don't want to "persuade" a friend because that is definitely crossing a line, how do you approach a friend for that even if they would be down for something like that..

Doing a double suicide is definitely interesting...however I'm a woman and after hearing all those stories I'm not sure I would trust any one on here enough to meet up in real life.

I love this site and the people on it are great but I don't wanna risk it and have history repeat itself.

 

[ATort]

That's the biter, even as a male, I can't trust like that, I've got enough trust issues as is and I feel like my friends are probably more likely to try and get me help in some way if I ever brought it up for real.. can't take another visit to the ward

 

[Forever Sleep]

Not sure that psycho serial killers exactly want willing victims. I get the impression it's a power trip for them. Not so many mercy killers out there. I guess there must be some though. I've wondered about contract killers. Could you take a contract out on your own life? Obviously, they'd need paying in advance. Lol.

It's an interesting legal quandry. Is it murder if that person has been contracted and paid to kill you- by you? They'll probably still say yes on the grounds that to want to suicide, you can't be in your right mind- according to them.

 

[AnonymousL]

Doing a double suicide is definitely interesting...however I'm a woman and after hearing all those stories I'm not sure I would trust any one on here enough to meet up in real life.

I love this site and the people on it are great but I don't wanna risk it and have history repeat itself.

What stories? I'm a woman myself thinking about meeting up for a double suicide but u have me doubting it now :s

 

[ATort]

Not sure that psycho serial killers exactly want willing victims. I get the impression it's a power trip for them. Not so many mercy killers out there. I guess there must be some though. I've wondered about contract killers. Could you take a contract out on your own life? Obviously, they'd need paying in advance. Lol.

It's an interesting legal quandry. Is it murder if that person has been contracted and paid to kill you- by you? They'll probably still say yes on the grounds that to want to suicide, you can't be in your right mind- according to them.

Unfortunately, there are not really any real contract killers or 'hitmen' pretty much anything you find online, ESPECIALLY on the darkweb, are all gov agents and police trying to catch people on misdeeds

 

[mortuarymary]

There is a post at the mo regarding hiring hitmen

 

[ilaya]

There is a post at the mo regarding hiring hitmen

where?

 

[MiMif]

What stories? I'm a woman myself thinking about meeting up for a double suicide but u have me doubting it now :s

The ones you would imagine. People met up for double suicide and got raped. I don't mind murder but rape is a big no

There is a post at the mo regarding hiring hitmen

Wait really?

 

[mortuarymary]

The ones you would imagine. People met up for double suicide and got raped. I don't mind murder but rape is a big no

Wait really?

Hitman

I do wonder if anyone hired a hitman to kill them?

sanctionedsuicide.site

 

[AnonymousL]

The ones you would imagine. People met up for double suicide and got raped. I don't mind murder but rape is a big no

Man, that's awful

 

[dekayingkong]

I was so excited after I got a ctb date but I backed out. I actually doubt I can even get the courage to kill myself no matter how much I dream and wish for death it's frustrating. I plan it all out and get ready but once the time comes I just can't bring myself to do it

All my problems would be solved if someone decided to drop a bomb on me or some physco just went up and stabbed me to death. I'm not sure I would want them to kill me quickly cause I want to see my guts spill out. Maybe I should walk around with a shirt saying please kill me. I'll even help them plan how to cover it up just please ..I want to die but am too much of a coward to do it myself.

Jumping is what I want to do but at this point I might just do partial hanging I'm not sure I have to guts for jumping. People who do are honestly amazing and have all my respect

I hear you. Whenever i see stories of good people getting into accidents, or getting murdered, i feel so sick. Why these people? Why not me? They never deserve it