I want out.

[xCharismatix]

Hello everyone,

I made an account on here a few years ago but at that time, things were more of a grey area. So I kept my options open. Now, things are much worse. I am in tremendous agony and have so many problems. I'm not looking for attention, I'm looking for a quick and painless way to CTB.

I've tried everything. Therapy. Pills. Internalizing regurgitating platitudes. There's no hope for someone like me. I'm not a kid either, I'm a full grown adult that has had years to think and reflect on this decision.

I'm asking others for advice/help on what my options are. I feel hopeless in this regard. I've been told multiple methods are unlikely to be effective and im not sure if its true or if well intentioned people are just trying to scare me out of it. Sadly where I'm located (Blue city in the US) acquiring a firearm is essentially impossible.

I had read in the past about SN and it greatly appealed to me....from what I can recall, it's a difficult process to acquire and administer, but if done right leads to a quick and painless death. Is this feasible to obtain in 2026? If im breaching any rules here, forgive me, I havent used the forum much.

Please, if anyone has any advice for a quick and painless way CTB, please help. I want out. I'm not interested in negotiation or trying anymore. I've exhausted every option that I'm comfortable with and these last few years trying to better my life, which has been an utter horror show, made me realize my situation is not going to improve in the way I want it to.

Wishing you all peace.

 

[RainyDays]

There's a bill in Congress that would make getting SN that's at a lethal purity impossible, essentially. I don't know if the bill passed or was even voted on. You can get SN in other countries extremely easily. One person said they walked in to a place, bought SN, and walked out. Here's the link to the post : https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/sn-megathread.1156/post-3340191

 

[xCharismatix]

There's a bill in Congress that would make getting SN that's at a lethal purity impossible, essentially. I don't know if the bill passed or was even voted on. You can get SN in other countries extremely easily. One person said they walked in to a place, bought SN, and walked out. Here's the link to the post : https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/sn-megathread.1156/post-3340191

That's incredibly fucking evil of congress. They have no problem bombing other countries endlessly but for those of us who want to go out peacefully and quietly they wish to deprive us? Wtf is wrong with humanity...

Which countries btw? I'd imagine bringing it back to the US where I'm located would be next to impossible so it kind of doesn't matter does it?

 

[RainyDays]

That's incredibly fucking evil of congress. They have no problem bombing other countries endlessly but for those of us who want to go out peacefully and quietly they wish to deprive us? Wtf is wrong with humanity...

Which countries btw? I'd imagine bringing it back to the US where I'm located would be next to impossible so it kind of doesn't matter does it?

The Philippines. In the link, someone from the Philippines walked in, bought SN, and walked out. I believe Turkey, as well. You could go to another country to buy and take SN. Of course, if you bring any medications such as an anti emetic, then it would have to be prescription with your name on it so it can pass TSA. Here's a link to someone that used SN in Turkey : https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/i-think-my-time-is-almost-up.232299/

 

[xCharismatix]

The Philippines. In the link I put someone from the Philippines I believe Turkey, as well. You could go to another country to buy and take SN. Of course, if you bring any medications such as an anti emetic, then it would have to be prescription with your name on it so it can pass TSA.

I see. I was hoping to die quietly and peacefully at night in my room, alone. Apparently reality wishes to shatter this dream too.

 

[RainyDays]

I see. I was hoping to die quietly and peacefully at night in my room, alone. Apparently reality wishes to shatter this dream too.

There's hanging you could do. I read a thread where someone used that.

 

[xCharismatix]

There's hanging you could do. I read a thread where someone used that.

I don't trust myself to build the noose properly and effectively. I was really hoping for something chemical since I can't get a gun....there has to be SOMETHING available in the US.

 

[RainyDays]

I don't trust myself to build the noose properly and effectively. I was really hoping for something chemical since I can't get a gun....there has to be SOMETHING available in the US.

Nembutal is something that could work. People get it through a veterinarian. Obviously, you have to have a pet.

 

[darksouls]

Hello everyone,

I made an account on here a few years ago but at that time, things were more of a grey area. So I kept my options open. Now, things are much worse. I am in tremendous agony and have so many problems. I'm not looking for attention, I'm looking for a quick and painless way to CTB.

I've tried everything. Therapy. Pills. Internalizing regurgitating platitudes. There's no hope for someone like me. I'm not a kid either, I'm a full grown adult that has had years to think and reflect on this decision.

I'm asking others for advice/help on what my options are. I feel hopeless in this regard. I've been told multiple methods are unlikely to be effective and im not sure if its true or if well intentioned people are just trying to scare me out of it. Sadly where I'm located (Blue city in the US) acquiring a firearm is essentially impossible.

I had read in the past about SN and it greatly appealed to me....from what I can recall, it's a difficult process to acquire and administer, but if done right leads to a quick and painless death. Is this feasible to obtain in 2026? If im breaching any rules here, forgive me, I havent used the forum much.

Please, if anyone has any advice for a quick and painless way CTB, please help. I want out. I'm not interested in negotiation or trying anymore. I've exhausted every option that I'm comfortable with and these last few years trying to better my life, which has been an utter horror show, made me realize my situation is not going to improve in the way I want it to.

Wishing you all peace.

however you decide,
I wish you the best, I hope you find relief from suffering

 

[gottacheckout]

I live in a blue state that has been one of the primary targets of the asshole. I admit though that my state is unique in being blue and very easy to qualify to buy a gun. However we don't pay nice with any of the other states, my chl from here is only good for here. Meanwhile my chl from a neighboring state covers me in 38 other states. I could get the rest but don't think I'll be traveling through them.

Nembutal is something that could work. People get it through a veterinarian. Obviously, you have to have a pet.

Sorry but I really don't believe veterinarians will sell N. My vet has it in a small vault mounted into the wall. The college of veterinary medicine teaches that not just N but the other medications used to euthanize animals be stored in secure safe or vault. If you actually find one that will risk their license and freedom to sell you some I'd be worried that it is a set up.

 

[RainyDays]

I live in a blue state that has been one of the primary targets of the asshole. I admit though that my state is unique in being blue and very easy to qualify to buy a gun. However we don't pay nice with any of the other states, my chl from here is only good for here. Meanwhile my chl from a neighboring state covers me in 38 other states. I could get the rest but don't think I'll be traveling through them.

Sorry but I really don't believe veterinarians will sell N. My vet has it in a small vault mounted into the wall. The college of veterinary medicine teaches that not just N but the other medications used to euthanize animals be stored in secure safe or vault. If you actually find one that will risk their license and freedom to sell you some I'd be worried that it is a set up.

What if Tom4705 had a pet? He might be able to say he needs N for the pet. Would that work?

 

[gottacheckout]

He can say it all he wants but it won't make any difference. It is not even a guarantee that he'd get N, there are other meds that can be used by a vet.

Tom's pet would have to weigh as much as he does and I'm sure a vet wouldn't even think about doing it if Tom's pet hasn't been a long term patient.

N is basically a no go now. There isn't enough demand for the blackmarket to get involved and N is being replaced by benzos in the medical field.

If you want SN your best bet is to search for it, there are places to get it. If that doesn't work then hang out here for a while and develop relationships. You might get lucky.

When I bought my sn I used a place that wasn't on anyone's radar. When asked I gave a use that is known but not that common. I was concerned that something could happen and I'd need to get more so I created an account with the company and made sure the guy in sales would remember me.

On a whim I tried to sign into my account a few weeks ago, my login and password work. I sent my salesman a note and he got right back to me asking if I needed more. I said not yet but may in a few months.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand, all I want is to be free from this cruel, torturous existence, all I want is to painlessly cease existing and I see so much terrible extreme cruelty in how peaceful ways to never suffer ever again are denied, I always suffer so much from how there isn't a way to just find true permanent peace from this existence that just caused me to suffer, I hope you find the freedom you search for, I wish you the best.