Venting I want out

[Saponification]

Some are afraid of death. I'm afraid of being alive.

I think I'm becoming addicted to gore videos, which mistifies me because they repulse me to my very core. I don't know why I feel compelled to watch them. I guess I just hate how people seem to ignore how unfathomably horrifying life can be, and I don't wanna be like that. It gives me such existential dread that I just want out so badly.

Please let there be eternal nothingness after I'm reduced to dust. I'm not a believer yet I beg the universe to let me rest after my death. I cannot handle even existing on this planet knowing what happens in it.

 

[Persona3]

It's crazy what kind of twisted people we share this world with. Many people can't grasp the concept because they have that ,,doesn't affect me, out of sight, out of mind,, mentality. People might call this blackpill, but it's not. The line between the pills is narrower than most realize. Still, you should stop watching those videos for your own sake