Venting I want my real self to be seen and accepted

[sleeplessboyinbed]

I could use a little acceptance right now. Just wish somebody could see me truly and say "It's ok, you're allowed to be yourself. You're not a monster or a sinner, everybody in your situation would feel like that. It's normal to want to feel seen". But it can only happen in my dreams. It's really a tragedy, being conscious. You understand that the world is cruel but you can't do anything about it. Life is just pain until i die. Being born was a mistake. My pathetic attempts at living always end in failure.
My thoughts are all over the place, it hurts so much in my chest, i wish i could just cut it out. But only words work...

 

[meowpuppy]

i relate a lot.. i know nobody will love me, for, probably the rest of my life, and i just have to accept this..