Venting i wanna hurt myself

[azule]

ive been having suicidal thoughts for a long time but never really had any self harm ones until now, i just want to cut myself but i am scared that it might hurt a lot or someone will find out

 

[AbsentMindedHuman]

Have you considered trying a non-permanent pain method to relieve that feeling. It wont help you with ideation, but things like snapping rubber-bands or holding ice cubes can give you that pain without leaving marks. The last thing you want is to have to explain what happened. That will make things 10x worse. I hope this helps. I dont always follow my own advice but its a start.

 

[Yarani]

now i just want to cut myself

Why, do you think?

 

[azule]

Have you considered trying a non-permanent pain method to relieve that feeling. It wont help you with ideation, but things like snapping rubber-bands or holding ice cubes can give you that pain without leaving marks. The last thing you want is to have to explain what happened. That will make things 10x worse. I hope this helps. I dont always follow my own advice but its a start.

I wanna cut myself see my blood but I fear the pain its gonna cause

 

[abchia]

I wanna cut myself see my blood but I fear the pain its gonna cause

Would you consider drawing on yourself instead?

 

[AbsentMindedHuman]

Yeah, I did that aswell, I used to take a marker and draw lines, fairly easy to wash off and help gets the urge off my mind. Unfortunately, when I get in this headspace I find i have to take it an hour at a time. Trying to distract myself until hopefully I forget about it.

I'm not going to tell you what to do, but I hope you are as safe as you can and maybe research places that are not as easily noticed if your just curious.

 

[azule]

Would you consider drawing on yourself instead?

I've done that already, almost hurting myself in the process too, it never feels like its enough

 

[abchia]

I've done that already, almost hurting myself in the process too, it never feels like its enough

I understand that. Stay safe.