I wanna ctb but I am not sad.

[fox_wannabe]

I wanna ctb today but I am not sad. Maybe because I have been sleeping a lot and played games, my two favorite things. I just now that I am unsustainable that way so I should just leave, real life makes me only suicidal, dealing with people, stress etc. I can only survive in very low stress environments these days. Like being alone. But when I am alone I do not see what awaits me. I cannot be like that forever.

I am kinda excited for dying, I have been wanting it for some time now.

 

[Lost Magic]

I feel the same way.

 

[Beeper]

I wanna ctb today but I am not sad. Maybe because I have been sleeping a lot and played games, my two favorite things. I just now that I am unsustainable that way so I should just leave, real life makes me only suicidal, dealing with people, stress etc. I can only survive in very low stress environments these days. Like being alone. But when I am alone I do not see what awaits me. I cannot be like that forever.

I am kinda excited for dying, I have been wanting it for some time now.

I can relate to how you feel.

The stress and expectations of living a "normal" life cause so much grief for me. It exacerbates my mental health challenges to the point where I cannot handle it.

Taking time off work and living a relatively sheltered existence at home allows me to heal a bit, and I generally feel like I would be willing to live if I could get by without working or having to deal with the normal BS that is part of our society.

It is unfortunate that the societal safety net (in the US at least) is not overly helpful.

 

[fox_wannabe]

I can relate to how you feel.

The stress and expectations of living a "normal" life cause so much grief for me. It exacerbates my mental health challenges to the point where I cannot handle it.

Taking time off work and living a relatively sheltered existence at home allows me to heal a bit, and I generally feel like I would be willing to live if I could get by without working or having to deal with the normal BS that is part of our society.

It is unfortunate that the societal safety net (in the US at least) is not overly helpful.

I do not think safety net is something I want. I do not want to depend on others or government because It is really unreliable way to live your life.
And I do not want to work because every harm I feel brings thousand others, that is how I am wired. Plus I do not know when people joke around or really try to harm me, both hurt me. People are so eager to play power games whenever they want. Especially at work, where I will always be first to be looked down upon because of my polite character and being generally silent and introverted person.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand, it makes me want to leave more when I have to deal with life. Everything stresses me out and I am not meant for this world. Life is just pointless suffering and death is freedom from it all. It is all I look forward to. Whatever happens, I wish you the best. When the time comes to leave, I hope you find peace.