FireFox
Enlightened
- Apr 8, 2020
- 1,417
At 25 in 2022 my life was at an all time high with great things happening for me and for once things were beautifully coming together.
I had the most amazing time in Italy then weeks later I gave my strongest ever interview performance when I came back to the UK. I got the job. The salary was great it was an increase from my last job. I fell in love with an older man in his 50s because he just made me feel so special and it was great finally having a man see me while guys my own age ignored me and all my life I have been that girl now woman who never gets picked and always ignored and overlooked. He turned out to be a horrible two faced man who has caused me enormous heartbreak which is not going away.
Winter it was snowing in my city and across the UK. During my lunch break I took a stroll in the snow and it was so magical because my life was finally coming together and I was looking forward to the future. For the first time I wanted to live. Christmas was just amazing. I brought so many gifts for my family household with my work salary. The living room was full of presents I brought my family.
Last year in 2023 it all came crashing down rapidly the beautiful life I had. Its so embrassing that I will be starting a masters degree at 27 all because of family financial issues left me unable to pay tuition fees I actually resent my mother for always sending money back home to help our selfish user relatives who live overseas ( African country). I feel so far behind compared to everyone else my age. It so hard seeing women I grew up with getting married while I am constantly unsuccessful with men and seeing everyone else having careers while I got fired.
I look back at old photos in 2022 because I will never have those great times again in my life. I really wanted to live and fought to improve my life but now I am done fighting. I don't want to live for the next 20 years and more. Life is nothing but a game and I done playing.
I had the most amazing time in Italy then weeks later I gave my strongest ever interview performance when I came back to the UK. I got the job. The salary was great it was an increase from my last job. I fell in love with an older man in his 50s because he just made me feel so special and it was great finally having a man see me while guys my own age ignored me and all my life I have been that girl now woman who never gets picked and always ignored and overlooked. He turned out to be a horrible two faced man who has caused me enormous heartbreak which is not going away.
Winter it was snowing in my city and across the UK. During my lunch break I took a stroll in the snow and it was so magical because my life was finally coming together and I was looking forward to the future. For the first time I wanted to live. Christmas was just amazing. I brought so many gifts for my family household with my work salary. The living room was full of presents I brought my family.
Last year in 2023 it all came crashing down rapidly the beautiful life I had. Its so embrassing that I will be starting a masters degree at 27 all because of family financial issues left me unable to pay tuition fees I actually resent my mother for always sending money back home to help our selfish user relatives who live overseas ( African country). I feel so far behind compared to everyone else my age. It so hard seeing women I grew up with getting married while I am constantly unsuccessful with men and seeing everyone else having careers while I got fired.
I look back at old photos in 2022 because I will never have those great times again in my life. I really wanted to live and fought to improve my life but now I am done fighting. I don't want to live for the next 20 years and more. Life is nothing but a game and I done playing.
