Venting I truly wish i had a terminal illness

[LastDayOnEarth]

Everyday I pray so I get cancer or anything that would at least guarantee my death at a certain point, please god why some people who really wanna live get terminal illneses but not those of us who wanna pass away for real

 

[PanaxMan]

Everyday I pray so I get cancer or anything that would at least guarantee my death at a certain point, please god why some people who really wanna live get terminal illneses but not those of us who wanna pass away for real

I mean aids and hiv route

 

[insectontrial]

I know the feeling. I'm chronically ill and am on an NHS waiting list to see a specialist, and I've had my symptoms dismissed now by them for over a year, so I've lost hope. At least if I had cancer there would be immediate treatment and support. With other illnesses there is nothing.

 

[unluckysadness]

For some reason, suicidal people won't get cancer. Another biological nonsense... I have multiple illnesses but no one is lethal

 

[Lazuli]

I too have a passive death wish for a long time. And guess what, my sister was the one diagnosed with sarcoma. She passed away May last year. As I stood by her bed when she drew her last breath, how I wished we could exchange places. At that moment I felt like the universe was mocking me.

 

[FrustratedMTFtrans]

I favor PanaxMan's HIV and AIDS suggestion. There are some short-term symptoms shortly after infection with HIV, then life seems normal despite the virus attacking the body's immune system, until it progresses to AIDS in around 4-5 years, if desisting from medication, followed by death in 8-10 years from infection (with the normal HIV1 strain). The AIDS phase involves weakness, loosing weight and likelihood to die from opportunistic infection rather than from AIDS itself, which is however gruesome, with suicide then a welcome way out. There are some medically resistant fast-acting strains like CRF19 that kill in 2-3 years, but they are extremely rare, as the victims usually die without passing on the infection to others.

 

[6486159051]

I'm laughing because this is so true. All the people with untreatable terminal cancers are live love laugh kind of people.

I actually did get cancer in my 20s but it was the easiest, most treatable bitch-flavoured cancer. A terminal diagnosis would have been a huge relief for me. There's still a chance that my little-bitch-cancer will induce a Real Cancer down the line.

Also, I sometimes feel that this life is wasted on me. I would happily give my life to a live love laugh kind of girly.

 

[telekon]

I favor PanaxMan's HIV and AIDS suggestion. There are some short-term symptoms shortly after infection with HIV, then life seems normal despite the virus attacking the body's immune system, until it progresses to AIDS in around 4-5 years, if desisting from medication, followed by death in 8-10 years from infection (with the normal HIV1 strain). The AIDS phase involves weakness, loosing weight and likelihood to die from opportunistic infection rather than from AIDS itself, which is however gruesome, with suicide then a welcome way out. There are some medically resistant fast-acting strains like CRF19 that kill in 2-3 years, but they are extremely rare, as the victims usually die without passing on the infection to others.

That sounds like a terrible idea... The chance of things improving after 4-5 years is actually high. It's the suffering for 4 years that sounds like the burden, so if you're there for 4 years and then suddenly in the 5th year it gets better, and you know you're gonna die...that's just a cosmic joke you're playing on yourself

 

[Zura]

dying would be nice but then again that will probably be really expensive and cost a lot of money to my parents so no fuck that
best case scenario would be traffic accident and hopefully its not too painful and i dont feel much